i need to stop writing illogical shit when i'm drunk and tired

the more i bother to look attractive during the day
the more unattractive i feel at the end.
um...brain...could you try to work?

so...i'm going to go shopping in columbus this weekend
and i'm also going to go see cody.
and it's only monday...
and i'm real fucking nervous.

but after talking to him...i feel like if i don't see him
i shouldn't have talked to him.
wow that doesn't even make sense
neither does going to see him.

cody called me back.
we talked for 2 hours
and it felt like nothing had changed
it was like we just picked up where we left off

i am positive... well...almost positive
that i could never be with him again
but i still adore him
fuck...i still like him
and he did the voice
and he still says just pickin' chicken
i feel better that i talked to him
he ( Read more... )

i had this unbelivable urge to call cody
and i did
and he didn't call me back.
and i don't have the urge to call him anymore.
weird because his aunt said he really wanted to hear from me
and so did tom (ex-roommate)

in other less dramatic news:
i am a mentor this year
i am cooking for myself...and I LOVE IT!
i am the slimmest i've ever been (and ( Read more... )

if i don't study abroad...
if i don't get out of this town...
i'll probably just take 5 years to graduate from another institute of higher education.

i had an interesting weekend ( Read more... )

The following are passages from The America Play and Other Works by Suzan-Lori Parks (i want to meet her ( Read more... )

school is starting
and all i want to do is go home.
BOO! Marietta!
BOO!

but i did see snakes on a plane in an empty theater
which was pretty fantabulous
so i got to scream
and yell at the characters in the movie
like if i was home
i guess that would have never happened in raleigh...
but then again
it did happen when i went to see
Pootay Tang

i am no longer in lust ( Read more... )