I'm terrified of losing the happiness I've recently obtained in my life after so much yearning and struggle. Especially with the guy I like. On the one hand I fear being too pushy with him, but on the other I'm scared that whatever we have won't last a summer apart and it'll be dead by the time we see each other in September. Things have just started with us and they have good potential, I just worry that it'll end before it's even begun.
i can finally say that i am completely happy, with my friends, my relationship, my job, and where i feel like i am going in life. but im still scared, scared of the chance that he does not love me as much as i love him, scared that i will screw this sense of "perfect" up and be lost again. i feel that i already had enough let downs this year, and that i can not take it anymore. but i try to be happy, to stay happy, and to realize that im one of the lucky ones. after all, he chose me over all the other girls that wanted him, obviously that means something. and he has stuck by me through everything i have put him through, the fights, the tears, the one sided screaming. its because of him that i know i am the luckiest girl alive.
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