Man I have to admit I'm having quite a streak of luck its nice for once. I mean I'm broke as per usual and all my friends have dispersed back to their colleges and what not. Classes are going well except for chemistry where my teacher is apparently still in Europe tomorrow will tell if he is back in the states or what. I am dating someone now and ( Read more... )

Ever had one of those days where your stomach is tightly wound and your heart is racing a mile a minute and its all because your thinking about one person? Well yeah I have and I feel like an idiot and I cant help but think of the song you think people would be tired of silly love songs.. but when I'm there it doesn't seem silly as at all. I dont ( Read more... )

There is just so many things to talk about I'm not even certain where to begin... Well lets start from the night of arrival I suppose Arrival of summer that is! My very best friend poor guy doesn't get in to Reston until like 2 in the AM but of course I was there to greet him when he was back along with the other believers of the queen. Lake Anne ( Read more... )

I really hate that I know I have trust issues... Whenever anything really fun or exciting or I've been looking forward to is about to happen something comes along to screw it up. I know I shouldnt be annoyed but I cant help but be annoyed. I'm supposed to go on my third date with the guy I thought I wasnt even going to be able to date at all. The ( Read more... )

So this isnt the first time I've been in this situation but it s the first time it has happened witha best friend of mine. She and I both like the same guy. Of course I've been friends with her for so long that her friendship is far more important than some guy. Especially because we just met the guy at the same time and only once. I just rarely ( Read more... )

Everytime I sit down to try and write an entry I dont find any words that seem interesting to write. Its not as if I'm letting anyone down by not keeping up with my journal its purely methodical and medicinal for my own purposes... In a way thats comforting I hate letting people down but on the same hand it is kind of depressing to think I'm just ( Read more... )

I feel quite like the pathetic excuse for a 20 year old. Here it is on a friday night and I cant get anyone to hang out with me granted it was last minute so I try to give myself some credit there. Looking through my cell phone I can see about 6 people I can call and think they might want to hang out. More than I had before but still significantly ( Read more... )

So yeah here I sit early in the morning feeling quite like crap. Received a call from Bobby-boy and couldn't even maintain my justifiable anger... For some reason I always have to be the bigger person the nice girl the sweet girl. I'm so tired of being told that I'm a nice girl that I'm cute never that I'm sexy or cool. No one ever dates the nice ( Read more... )

So yeah cliche post but I have been feeling pretty mixed up for a while this is just one of the first moments I've had alone to write whatever I felt like in a while. SO yeah everything hasnt been so bad its been pretty good actually its just I think its going to get bad soon. I really hate the fact that I fall for guys so easily and that I cant ( Read more... )

SO my previous post was more a collection of thoughts that had happened a week ago but this week has been far different. I am most certainly positive I will fail my PE course. It all started out innocently enough I woke up a bit later than I meant to on Wednesday and I had to go to a doctors appointment. What I didn't realize though was that it ( Read more... )