Know it hasnt been all that long to everyone else probably, but its been way too long for me....im a bit homesick, heh, mostly for the things i love at home, not just home itself. I miss hannah most of all. it was funny, cuz every little thing reminded me of her today. anyawyz, im in memphis tennessee right now...

Drivin and watchin the scenes pass by is always a fun way to think. Funny how things dont really work the way you want. oh well. I think i dont like it here at all.....I know im not wanted here, and am simply treated as an out-of-towner instead of family...its kinda funny. The rents are kool, but everything else is odd, almost backwards.....

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This is some damned good hate music.....khorn......oh well......while stuck out here i can only imagine rammin my fist through shit......cant wait till i get home. my fuckin anger and aggression is fuckin through the roof. I cant wait till i get home. im gonna finish all this fuckin shit!

God....its fuckin crazy.....im fuckin freakin....i dont give into hate for once and its like i feel like my heads gonna blow. am i this fucked in the head....im cryin one sec, furious the next, then im happy.....i hope this shit stops....ew...nosebleed...not a good sign....im must really be freakin......god what do i do.....make this shit stop...i ( Read more... )

Ill do what she says. shes generally right. ill give up vengence. ive never had peace through that option. perhaps theres peace. i guess its a good thing im freaking here......maybe ill have the end and new beggining i wished for now. So fuck my concious. Fuck my guilt. Just let me be to the things i love

What can i say? eight hours in an airport makes you wonder why your away, when the one you love so dearly is in florida. but its ok. theres decent people here and my dad is pretty cool. but yeah, i miss my baby tonz......ill be callin her soon. yay me!anxious to get ome already......but its ok

You sund like a pussy, and when amber calls someone a little bitch, its generally true.

So i go to bed at 4am or so....get woken up at 8, mow someones yard and come home to try,keyword, try to chill. well fuck thatidea. mrs laura burns her goddamned hand, blames my fuckin mom and ppl start trippin. FUCKING JOY! i can deal with the lack of sleep, but im ready to tell the next person that somuch as raises their voice at me that im gonna ( Read more... )

went to sanctuary and everything. whole nine yards old time stay from twelve till twelve deal...well....2am....besides the point. i painted talked, and hell every fuckin body missed me. and it seems like fate, though im torn between beleiving, has her way. airborne, of all people, is having and cleaning up the crisis of his life and he comes to me. ( Read more... )