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blackdove1978

Haven't written in a while.

May 27, 2009 17:09

I'm back on the Livejournal train, (temporarily before taking up more permanent residence at Wordpress) after feeling pressure and drama to not let Myspace get the better of me. I lost that battle, not because of the drama, but because of my inability to not let it get to me. There was an awakening of sorts, and I realized that I, once again, was ( Read more... )

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mage_girl May 28 2009, 00:20:28 UTC

Welcome back, hon ( ... )

blackdove1978 May 28 2009, 17:20:43 UTC

Long time, no hear :)

It's less about jealousy and drama, and more about me letting something as ridiculous as Myspace get under my skin. :)

And now that I'm out of it. . .I oddly don't feel free from it.

That tells me it IS more about jealousy. Perhaps counseling (for me) wouldn't be such a bad plan. Kind of a refresher on what the heck it is I'm doing.

Thanks hon
xo

kellwho May 28 2009, 06:05:30 UTC

First of all, welcome back, and leaving Myspace = WIN. Man, that place is lame, I don't know why anyone still uses it, honestly.

To your question of where to start?

Meditate. It's the only sound advice I'm qualified to give on the matter. Research it, (get "Start Where You Are" by Pema Chodron!) try it alone, go to a group. I have several I like, all non-weird or new-age hippy-ish.

As hard as it is, sometimes it's best to simply sit with the feelings. You are already doing one thing right, making your actions follow the path that you wish your feelings would follow. There are some great stories about this in Buddhism, about people who even turned hatred of someone to love just by *acting* like they loved them. (Not in a bad relationship-y way, the story I'm thinking of involves a son and his dying father.)

Of course, holding it all in when it's killing you is never a good idea, but you can at least meditate a bit on *why* it is so important and crazy-making and see if it still feels as big.

That's my two cents!

blackdove1978 May 28 2009, 17:22:59 UTC

That is very sound advice. I don't even know how to meditate. I know there's a whole section on it at Half Price though, maybe I'll browse it next time I'm there (which is, like, every day :))

Myspace. Ah, yes. I love Myspace. It's not drama, in and of itself, it's my perception that makes it so. It's my obsession that makes it so. I haven't logged on in like two days, and I understand now why they call it Mycrack. It's an addiction I have to break, and that's part of the problem, the fact that I give that much of a shit.

Oh well, gotta start somewhere :)
xo