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depressed post, don't click if you don't wanna hear it and if you do, don't bitch about it
so...I guess it's been quite some time since I updated this damndable thing.
anyways as most of you know I was out west for sometime to be with Nyckie, my love, but due to car damages and a sever lack of funding I had to return home to bracebridge, so now I'm back here $1300 in debt to my nana, and I'm miserable haha whats new there.
So for a while I had a job doing roofing with Norstar, I liked it for a bit, but didn't feel that sticking thru with it during the winter was going to be a good idea, so instead of spending a total of 5-600 dollars on equipment that I would never use I quit, I loved the physical aspect of the job as I was moving over 1400+ lbs a day (70 lbs bundles of shingles moved quite a few times) anyways what I didn't like was the guy treating me like I should know everything and basically belittled me at all times and anytime I stood up for myself he would threaten to dock me pay cause I was smart mouthing him, combine that with the fact my work was tottally relient on the weather equalling an unhappy Josh. So quit that job and was immediatly hired at Boston Pizza which opened on tuesday, I finally get to open a restaurant, anyways, thigns are going pretty good, there, there are good ppl, as well as an opening for daytime supervisor, which I am workign my ass off to get, but like all things I want more thn likly won't happen...so now I sit here, in whats left of my former room ( everything is in boxes and I sleep on a matteress directly on the floor), wishing somehow that things will change really soon cause I hate everything right now...all summer I was looking forward to Halloween, something I look forward to anyways butmore so this year as I would be spending it with Nyckie and her son Alex, but now I'm back here and not going to be able to spend it with her, and I jsut want to skip the day completly, and now I might not even get to see her at Xmas or New years, or for either of our birthdays, for family reasons, which I completly understand, but it fucking sucks, like I know it sounds shelfish and all but like fuck I just want to be able to spend time with her and now I'm not. I was looking forward to these upcoming holidays and birthdays soo much....and now they've been ripped from me. I just want to crawl into a hole and sleep...not to be awoken till she is here, and at this rate, it could be a very long time
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so...I guess it's been quite some time since I updated this damndable thing.
anyways as most of you know I was out west for sometime to be with Nyckie, my love, but due to car damages and a sever lack of funding I had to return home to bracebridge, so now I'm back here $1300 in debt to my nana, and I'm miserable haha whats new there.
So for a while I had a job doing roofing with Norstar, I liked it for a bit, but didn't feel that sticking thru with it during the winter was going to be a good idea, so instead of spending a total of 5-600 dollars on equipment that I would never use I quit, I loved the physical aspect of the job as I was moving over 1400+ lbs a day (70 lbs bundles of shingles moved quite a few times) anyways what I didn't like was the guy treating me like I should know everything and basically belittled me at all times and anytime I stood up for myself he would threaten to dock me pay cause I was smart mouthing him, combine that with the fact my work was tottally relient on the weather equalling an unhappy Josh. So quit that job and was immediatly hired at Boston Pizza which opened on tuesday, I finally get to open a restaurant, anyways, thigns are going pretty good, there, there are good ppl, as well as an opening for daytime supervisor, which I am workign my ass off to get, but like all things I want more thn likly won't happen...so now I sit here, in whats left of my former room ( everything is in boxes and I sleep on a matteress directly on the floor), wishing somehow that things will change really soon cause I hate everything right now...all summer I was looking forward to Halloween, something I look forward to anyways butmore so this year as I would be spending it with Nyckie and her son Alex, but now I'm back here and not going to be able to spend it with her, and I jsut want to skip the day completly, and now I might not even get to see her at Xmas or New years, or for either of our birthdays, for family reasons, which I completly understand, but it fucking sucks, like I know it sounds shelfish and all but like fuck I just want to be able to spend time with her and now I'm not. I was looking forward to these upcoming holidays and birthdays soo much....and now they've been ripped from me. I just want to crawl into a hole and sleep...not to be awoken till she is here, and at this rate, it could be a very long time
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