well, all good things must come to an end. i apologize for my lack of updating! it's been a very hectic week for me. well where to start? since im not too sure where i left off, i'll start with friday. friday, was...good/bad. good because i was alive and i have amazing friends. bad because i have parted ways with kevin. please dont be mad at me ( Read more... )

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god made sundays a day of rest. and i did just that! woke up around 8, watched harry potter and the chamber of secrets and did some make up homework. talked to kevin for a bit. slept until like 2:30, the fam came over with shadow :). that dog is such a cutie! we had lunch around 3:30 or so. went back to sleep at 5 and woke up at 7. watched a little ( Read more... )

kay saturday was simply amazing! at like 12 kevin called, and asked me if i wanted to go to band practice with him and the other band girlfriends. So i got ready and waited for like an hour and was like "hmm maybe he's not going to pick me up for a few hours." So i took a lovely nap, it really was delightful. Then around 4 he called and said he was ( Read more... )

so i stayed home again today becuase my body was so freakin' tired and in so much pain. kevin and mike came by to visit me after school :). they're way too sweet. around 5 i went to get ready for the funeral. we left around 6 for the church. it was so sad, when we were walking up to go inside the guys were bringing in the coffin. it hadnt really ( Read more... )

stayed home from school today. i really wih i hadnt. i hate missing school, especially so early into the school year. around 2:30 i went over to urgent care with my mom. i didn't get to see a doctor until like 4:30, and it was so cold in waiting room. so i finally got in, and i had to pee in a cup. it was the funniest thing. i was peeing and i ( Read more... )

ouch...

thats all i can really think of to type. school was absolutely horrible. i didn't get a part in the play. it was a bummer, but hey, there's always next time. i ditched my 6th hour because i felt so disgustingly horrible. i finally got my insurance card from my dad, so i can FINALLY go to the doctor. my mom made me an appointament for monday ( Read more... )

pain...loads and loads of pain :(

i...i can't really explain what im feeling right now. a part of me is so upset and exhausted with pain, but another half of me can't help but be angry. such a beautiful girl, only 23. a beautiful, adorable 3 year old baby girl. and such a loving family. what more could someone ask for? why did death have to be her only option!? it shouldn't have. ( Read more... )

we lost someone today. someone i've known since i was four. she was such a beautiful person, inside and out. she will be missed so much. i didn't think things could get so bad that one would have to turn to suicide. but i was proven wrong, as usual. nothing is ever that bad. im so upset today, im sorry for this post.
<3-jennarose