I am getting to the point when i realized something today. I have not had one real girlfriend this year. Its kind of depressing now that I think about it. What the hell do I do with myself. What is it about me that is so undatible. I am thankful of all my friends that I have made this year. I have some of the best friend I could ever ask for ( Read more... )

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This has been on my mind for quite some time. I think about the changes of the seasons. The drifting of the year as it ages like we do. The fall is just another time of the year. One I used to hate. Though this year I feel so different towards my once hated phase. Now I realize that fall is much like death. Its the last beauty in which any ( Read more... )

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Each day I take another step towards each of my goals. Still though I am only on the foothills of the mountain I set forth to conquer years ago. I ache with the pain of the many many times people have pushed me down the steep slope of my own goals. I keep pushing but I know that my goals are quite difficult to finish. I hate knowing that its ( Read more... )

So after hearing so many people say how shag a show the O.C. is i desided to download the first season on DVD. I am hooked. I cant stop watching. Its like an addiction. Whats going to happen next, you know. haha. if i didnt love the pussy so much, i swear i would be gay.

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So last night I went disk golfing, got drunk, and bought a pack of smokes. So, I am going to have to start quiting agian. haha, this sucks. maybe its just impossible for me to quit, or at least til i get a new life style.

So, when i tried to quit smoking, it failed. Here I am two days later or so and trying again. I have not had a single smoke today. Though, i am fucking dying to have one. I mean I NEED ONE. It is the worst feeling in the world to not have a cig. Its such a hard thing to give up. I dont even know what to do about it anymore. Someone fucking ( Read more... )

Once again trying to quit smoking. Sitting here going crazy over a cig. A fucking peice of paper with some tobaco. ARGGGGGG, this is the worst feeling in the world. It feels like im drowning, like i cant breath. I hate everything, im so very very angry. The feeling so hard to express. I think the best way is, you feel thirsty, but water will ( Read more... )