whenever the guy i'm currently dating says "i love you" i think
oh. do you really? i don't think so. i think it's something you've said to every girl that you have ever dated. so that they'll fuck you. you don't really love me. you just want me to feel guilty if i ever have thoughts of wanting to break up with you.
and then he says that i make him happy. happier than he has ever been. and i just want to scream at him for saying that. because he's going to go off to college next year and that's the end of this. and again, i think it's something he's said to every girl he's dated. and just....maybe it has something to do with me feeling as though i'm not good enough for him. maybe not. i just wish there was some way for me to know that he was sincere. but if i ever brought it up, it would hurt him. and i don't want to hurt him and yeah. stuff. :(
everyone thinks i'm this strong, independent person, but i'm really lonely and weak. i only wish i had as much strength as my friends. of whom i don't like all that much, anyway. sometimes i feel like my whole life is a damn secret.
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oh. do you really? i don't think so. i think it's something you've said to every girl that you have ever dated. so that they'll fuck you. you don't really love me. you just want me to feel guilty if i ever have thoughts of wanting to break up with you.
and then he says that i make him happy. happier than he has ever been. and i just want to scream at him for saying that. because he's going to go off to college next year and that's the end of this. and again, i think it's something he's said to every girl he's dated. and just....maybe it has something to do with me feeling as though i'm not good enough for him. maybe not. i just wish there was some way for me to know that he was sincere. but if i ever brought it up, it would hurt him. and i don't want to hurt him and yeah. stuff. :(
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