What do you do when you can't confide in your trusted because it will hurt them? Who do you turn to when no one will understand?

My friend jess is convinced that i'm gonna cheat on john again and it pisses me off. The main reason being that i'm afraid that it's true. I wanna die...

I don know what ta do... I'm so free spirited an' john's so down ta earth. We're like opposite sides of a coin...

I have a problem. I don't think that i find myself sexually attracted to john anymore... I don't know why, all i know is that its just not there anymore...

A heated conflict in his mind, a restless passion left behind. What will happen lest it be freed is what has happened, a shamefull deed.

bah... Why do i always make bad decisions? I hate myself...

My car, my baby, my new used car that cost my grandpa over three grand could be dead. Why do i have such bad luck with cars? I hate my life...

I want to drive my car into a concrete wall going 80 or drive it off of a cliff... I'm so sick of life... It seems so pointless...

blah... Today was supposed to be mine and john's day alone together, but he decided he wanted to go job hunting... I'm just... Blah...

Thy franzlefritz has left me kerbobbled...