I hate the way i can't stop srying, i hate the way, i aget sooo depressed that i dont study any more. I can't keep getting wrapped up in guys that they  take over my whole life. I hate the way i get terrible grades, i am a smart person, i deserve better grades.

I hate how i miss chris so much, its just that i im sooo confuse. I dunno if  I miss ( Read more... )

Whats new with me, lately i have been in such a slum, b/c the a boy that i deeply  liked, tells me he doesn't want to be with me. He says he wants to be this girl, who he has been talking to lately,.... I miss him soo much, and i dont know how to erase this, i want him to want me again, and this whole day today, all he has done was ignore me..... i ( Read more... )

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The Fool
Position: ChallengesMain (positional) Meaning:
Don't allow the Judgements of others to inhibit your possibilities in a potential relationship.

The card that lands in the Challenges position refers to ways that you can turn obstacles into stepping stones.

When the Fool is in this position, you may ( Read more... )

My last boyfriend, who is my exc boyfriend calls me 2 nights ago. we haven't spoke in awhile and he 1st says how i never call him ne more, and then he says how i must be talking to chris. He tells me that he's going back out w/his ex and ask me if i still like him, if we will hang out in UB. He asks me if i am talking to anyone and all just asking ( Read more... )

It was a Great movie...... it was sooooo sweet and innocent and everything i forgot life was all about. I am soooooo  happy i started my whole celibacy practice, because sometimes sex gets in the middle of stuff that are much more important.... Its funny because  just the other day i got this horoscope:

Saturday, August 14, 2004
capricorn horoscope ( Read more... )

I have alot on my mind, so i it might all seem very confusing but its me just ANGRY, at everyone!.... I always use to wonder why do i want a boyfriend?... boys are just like dogs, you gotta potty train them and shit!... but after meeting chris ( the love of my life) it all changed. Many people said chris wasn't right for me, b/c he had the worst ( Read more... )

My SUMMER,........

Wat can i really say about it, it was funny it was depressing, sad, fucking physchotic, some moments i loved it, so moments i hated it, some moments i wished i was dead.... Its sad that when i was in buffalo i kept saying how something big was going to happen, and now i found the something big. My life, my life has reached this ( Read more... )

My first love was very verbally abusive to me, and my third b'f was mean to me with words, but i think it was more of a way to get me back when i did something to him. He was VERY spiteful. And very indecietsive, to the point that he broke up w/me three days after he declared how much he likes me.... I am tired of getting these no stupid ass men. I ( Read more... )

Wednesday, July 21, 2004
capricorn horoscope

Your Wednesday Horoscope, Peace!
A partner will once again make things better. Your recent struggles have not changed the dynamic of your relationship. Focus on treasuring the solid nature of things.

..... Could they be talking about Tammon?,,,hmmm i wonder thats the only boy i been partners with ( Read more... )

I wonder what happens, if i ever lost myself, if i ever lost my own heart?... what would happen to me and the people around me if that would to happen?... Guess its time to sit back n see.