This is for Jesska ( Read more... )

I'm in the process of changing my journal. I'm not sure if I'll keep the old entries or not. I feel like I have moved past that part of my life. I'm different now, at least for the time being. I think that I go through phases where I really hate everything and not just a normal hate. Now, I'm okay with where I am, I don't need to write horribly ( Read more... )

I just wanted to say how it fucking pisses me off that I have worked for fucking 9 hours today, I come home only to have all my shit moved around, all our furniture gone. AND NOW... now, I am still working and you know what she is doing? Fucking laying down!!! She didn't even get up until 3pm. God. She already ruined this house and leaves me to do ( Read more... )

It's nights like this that I really feel all alone.

I am so uncomfortable in this life I have. I don't belong. It doesn't fit me.

I wish that I could leave. Run away and never look back. I would head to the ocean. The sand. The beach. I feel like that's where I belong.

I went and saw King Kong tonight... super sad ( Read more... )

One of my cats died. The one that sleeps with me every night. The one that is so happy when I get home. The one that has helped me fill the hole in my heart after I lost Margo. He's gone. I took him to be cremated this morning... the hardest part was handing over the box. It breaks my heart to know I'll never see him again... that he died so ( Read more... )

Sometimes I ache so badly ( Read more... )

So I suppose I should write an entry ( Read more... )

I feel like my life never stops being difficult. I never have a break ( Read more... )