Remeber?
Remember?
Remember? Do you? I remember many times. I remember Halloween. The first time I really ever talked to you. I thought after that night. I figured out I had feelings for him straight away. I couldn’t sleep that night. I wanted to see him. Luckily the next day was school. It was funny. That night everything fell into place. He asked me who I liked and some other questions. I said you. He thought I liked him, though I really did. He said out of the people at our school he liked me. I felt so lucky. Though it didn’t mean he quite liked me…
I couldn’t wait. I was expecting a call. I was told Stephen was going ask me to the dance. I was so excited. I wish I could feel that again. When he called it was so amazing. I could feel my heart beating. I could barely talk. I have never been like that around any other guy. It took me a while to put my thoughts together. I was so happy I couldn’t wait. The 17th of November…
I remember when we where standing in the field. Every one was there. They all turned around, we where about to kiss. It was amazing how close it was. Though they turned around, it was amazing how shy you where. I remember how these people where in the field and we rushed inside. Though we found out later they where nothing to be afraid of. I remember, we where sitting on the couch people trying to get us to kiss. Though again you where shy in front of people. I didn’t care. I was just happy to be with you, to have you with me. Everything was alright. I couldn’t wait to see you again…
I remember. It was a Friday night, Fridays seemed to be amazing. I remember when we all went to Sean’s. It was funny. Once again I was the last one to show up. I had found out Michelle and Sean had already kissed. After a while we made them leave. It was amazing what had happened. I remember it like if it where yesterday. It was better then anything that could have ever happened, but really what happened? I don’t know. I remember I laid my head on his chest and listened to him breath. I could here the simplest thing. Simple things can please me, but simple isn’t what anything turned out to be. Nothing is simple…
I, I really don’t know any more. Everything seems so unclear. I wish every day for things to go back, when everything seemed to be alright. Really if you think about it… maybe nothing was actually simple, but I really don’t want to get into anything complicated. Anyways that is another story. I thought have kissing our feelings for each other would be stronger then ever. I guess I was wrong. How many days did it take.
It was a real miss leaded love. I never knew you didn’t care for me until the second you dumped me. I was devastated. Though I couldn’t cry, I was dieing on the inside. That call I got that night was the one thing that killed everything happy in my life. That one call destroyed me.
I can’t help but wonder. What did I do? I can’t help but wonder every day what could have happened? What if I changed one thing I did? Would everything be ok with me? Would I be writing what I am right now, but I would be happier. I would be overjoyed, happy. I would be fine. Though I will pretend I am fine. I really am, though it eats away at me when I think about him. Everything seems to remind me of him. Though, if I would have never done this I would have never gotten wiser. I would have never found the feeling of hurt in my life. It would be nice, but you have never lived until you have felt pain. This may be a bunch of blabber to you but this is how I feel. This is how I will always me. Happy or Not?
Remember? Do you? I remember many times. I remember Halloween. The first time I really ever talked to you. I thought after that night. I figured out I had feelings for him straight away. I couldn’t sleep that night. I wanted to see him. Luckily the next day was school. It was funny. That night everything fell into place. He asked me who I liked and some other questions. I said you. He thought I liked him, though I really did. He said out of the people at our school he liked me. I felt so lucky. Though it didn’t mean he quite liked me…
I couldn’t wait. I was expecting a call. I was told Stephen was going ask me to the dance. I was so excited. I wish I could feel that again. When he called it was so amazing. I could feel my heart beating. I could barely talk. I have never been like that around any other guy. It took me a while to put my thoughts together. I was so happy I couldn’t wait. The 17th of November…
I remember when we where standing in the field. Every one was there. They all turned around, we where about to kiss. It was amazing how close it was. Though they turned around, it was amazing how shy you where. I remember how these people where in the field and we rushed inside. Though we found out later they where nothing to be afraid of. I remember, we where sitting on the couch people trying to get us to kiss. Though again you where shy in front of people. I didn’t care. I was just happy to be with you, to have you with me. Everything was alright. I couldn’t wait to see you again…
I remember. It was a Friday night, Fridays seemed to be amazing. I remember when we all went to Sean’s. It was funny. Once again I was the last one to show up. I had found out Michelle and Sean had already kissed. After a while we made them leave. It was amazing what had happened. I remember it like if it where yesterday. It was better then anything that could have ever happened, but really what happened? I don’t know. I remember I laid my head on his chest and listened to him breath. I could here the simplest thing. Simple things can please me, but simple isn’t what anything turned out to be. Nothing is simple…
I, I really don’t know any more. Everything seems so unclear. I wish every day for things to go back, when everything seemed to be alright. Really if you think about it… maybe nothing was actually simple, but I really don’t want to get into anything complicated. Anyways that is another story. I thought have kissing our feelings for each other would be stronger then ever. I guess I was wrong. How many days did it take.
It was a real miss leaded love. I never knew you didn’t care for me until the second you dumped me. I was devastated. Though I couldn’t cry, I was dieing on the inside. That call I got that night was the one thing that killed everything happy in my life. That one call destroyed me.
I can’t help but wonder. What did I do? I can’t help but wonder every day what could have happened? What if I changed one thing I did? Would everything be ok with me? Would I be writing what I am right now, but I would be happier. I would be overjoyed, happy. I would be fine. Though I will pretend I am fine. I really am, though it eats away at me when I think about him. Everything seems to remind me of him. Though, if I would have never done this I would have never gotten wiser. I would have never found the feeling of hurt in my life. It would be nice, but you have never lived until you have felt pain. This may be a bunch of blabber to you but this is how I feel. This is how I will always me. Happy or Not?