I skip school.
    well use to.
I smoke.
I cut.
I got fired from my job.
I might end up in the hospital again if I dont watch it.
I've fucked up many of times already.
I'm the little mistake of the family.
I dont trust people.
I hate being with people.
I wanna commit suicide.
I'm failing school.
I have no future.
I want to be alone.
I hate love.
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I just want to run away.
He is always is the back of my head.
Knowing that hes in the same place as me just rips me apart.
He doesnt know, doesnt care.
Flicks me off just like a cigarette ash.
Forgetting whatever happened.
I wish one of us would just leave.
wishing it was me.
Hes a careless bastard now.
Maybe it was my fault but...
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I feel so useless.
not knowing what to feel.
or what to want.
I'm lost in my own mess.
Sooo fucking confused.

I LOveee the nicotine

rawwrrrr


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I fuckinn
hate.
this.

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heres so much chaos.
My whole family is fucked up.
Everyone in this fuckin world is fucked up.
They go to "things" to make them get away from what they cant deal with.
Its fuckin sad.
Faking that you care or never talking to me..ever.
Going through a rough ass time, when you cant put into words how much it hurts so you show it on your body.
Drinking till ( Read more... )

I hate seeing "it" like this...

10 years ago I...
1. I was 7
2. homeschooled
3. fat

5 years ago I...
1. probably in 6 or 7 grade
2. started to like school
3. hated the people in my town

3 years ago I...
1. Was in 8th grade.
2. hated myself and life
3. tried to act sexy

1 year ago I...
1. I was in love
2. Had the best school year of my life
3. was happy

So far this year I...
1. been fucked up
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I have a future finally ( Read more... )