living in your head, without anything to numb you...

[blackrosetears]

i swear im trying to stop it.  i really want to be happy here

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Get hold of yourself, Woman!

[anonymous]

You know, at this point in your life you really have to hold it together. You’re a lot stronger than you let on, Carrie. This is a strength that you need to demonstrate through the current period of your life. The key to your happiness is being obscured by your unwillingness to be honest with yourself and the people around you. You actually know what you want in this life, it’s about time that you called upon that “inner strength” and voiced these ambitions to the people around you, regardless of what they may think. The important thing is to get serious about these ambitions, develop your courage and resolve, and start taking what you want, because the opportunities are there, you just have to be bold enough to utilize them. You may think that you made a mistake concerning your recent choices, don’t classify them as bad choices, they’re lessons that you needed to learn. Make the best of your recent circumstances, you have the power to turn them into a positive for yourself and force them to work to your advantage. The change you

Re: Get hold of yourself, Woman!

[blackrosetears]

its hard to reply without knowing exactly to whom im adressing. but i have a good guess. i guess i really thought no one read this... ever. so it was all honest. honest with eveyone around me can be tricky. if you know me well enough.. which you seemingly do.. i dont like certain reactions.. and i dont like feeling like im responsible for the pain in someone else. id rather be the victim.. because feeling like the aggressor or decision maker in some cases makes me feel like im being hurtful and i associate that with only bad things. brenda things. i cant hurt someone who i know loves me. because i dont want that to happen to me. some of my choices are stupid.. but they feel right because they make someone else feel really good.. and in those moments.. that seems pretty good. you think i know what i want. but thats where your mistaken i think. i have no fucking clue. i bounce from day to day on where i think i belong. sometimes right here. sometimes the other place i would have been(the greener side). or someplace i couldnt imagine. i