im learning to not even have to fake it. im done feeling like this. i never wanted to be with involved with someone who doenst appriciate being with me. dont be so sure that im wrapped around your finger ( Read more... )

And if you find one day, find some freedom and relief
With this freedom maybe, maybe you will find some peace
 And with this peace, baby, I hope it brings you back to me
Bring you home, take me home.


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im almost glad i can finally be angry enough to let these fantasies go ( Read more... )

"I just want to feel safe in my own skin.
I just want to be happy again.
I just want to feel deep in my own world."


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awesome spring break. sadly its coming to a quick end ( Read more... )

another stupid jealous girl breakdown today. i hate it, its stupid. but  myspace=life ruiner.
but i pick myself and remember just like the song says, no one loves you the way i do.
and if some chick on myspace is really something to worry about, then what really could i expect from us at all? 
give me a sign.  or let me go.

"I don't touch you the ( Read more... )

its been a good solid day.
went to work.
made a smoking/tv lounge in my room. ((suprise sarah k)) eep. haha.
cleaned.
and started on the newest gossip girl books.
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its everyone's spring break... i really do miss my roommates.  sometimes i forget how fucking awesome this is, because i take it for granted. 2-3 years ago i never could have imagined ( Read more... )

ouch. that hurt.

i just need to get really stoned and pray for sleep.

i really miss him alot. my thoughts last night couldnt be deterred. everytime i wake up, i open my eyes with a faint hope he'll be there looking right back at me, with that look in his eyes that makes me feel im not crazy for still being head over heels in love.

i had a plan for this next post. a page of pictures of an amazing vacation that now seems like a work of my imagination, as well as more confessions of blosoming faith ( Read more... )