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[blackskiesfade]

listening to all my life.. crying .. and i don't know what to do.
i'm afriad. scared...
scared to be with him anymore.
i get weird thoughts and dreams anymore..
dreams about him cheating on me.
dreams about him abusing me.
..what does it mean.
dreams about him dumping me.
IM AFRAID.. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.. I'm so confused. I want a hug..

Comments

[almostfam0us]

If you love him, you'd let him be himself. Yeah, it's hard. But Meghan..you have to. This can't always be about you.. yeah, drinking and smoking isn't all that great, but try not to act like his mom. He already has one of those. Just be there for him, and eventually..he'll realize you were right all along.

And dreams don't mean anything, they're crazy for everyone. Calm down, kay? It's going to be fine.

[blackskiesfade]

I just want to talk to him Bry and i'm shaking and crying and so afraid I can't. I wish someone would call over at his sisters and tell him to call me.

[almostfam0us]

Call him. Just pick up the phone..and call him. Tell him how you feel.

[blackskiesfade]

I don't know. He might be gone.. and they might be sleeping. Who knows.

[gentlewhispers]

Meghan, hun if you love everything will be fine. Those dreams and thoughts are nothing you're just scared. Yes don't drink or smoke trust me they don't get you anywhere just makes things worse.

Don't worry you'll be fine, and maybe talking to him will make you feel alot better.

AAHH why arent i ever around!

[pixelthesexyful]

i'm so stupid! i'm sorry i wasnt around when you needed someone to talk to :-( i sent you an email last night but i havent had time to update/check all my journals that i read, i'm sorry i wasnt around. i hope when i go to check my mail in a few minutes that therell be a reply from you saying that life is peachy and everything is good, i hope so very much.
i'm so sorry i wasnt around to give you a webcam/virtual hug when you needed one :-(
i'll make it up to you!
~pixel