self relaince
i just
need something right now,
and i dont know
what it is.

i'm so sick of being sick
and tired of being so tired.
balance is the key to nothing
and everything.

a sense of accomplishment and peace
overwhelms me
it's amazing lord,
how you can take away
my suffereing and replace it
with such amazing feelings

i trust you and trust what
you are doing in my life.
take me away from dwelling
on this pain..and help me
to rid this masquerade i've been
subjecting myself to.
help me understand that i'm
so broken and you are the only
thing that can overcome this,
and fix myself.

just grant me the strength.

so when something awful happens,
something amazing and wonderful happens.
i am so thankful for everyone who
has helped me out in my hard time..
it means a lot..

josh..kelly..emily..kristen...billy...dakota..
siobhan...and my mom.
thanks.

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think what you want, thats not what i am
im done with you and i
regret every second i spent with you,
your finally gone but my mistakes still
haunt me.. these feeble attempts for
closure remain neglected
on your part
im finished trying to talk to you

hahah sorry billy!

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