Alone

[blade_bunny]

I've never been good at maintaining social relationships. My earliest memories of friendship are bizarre, I just wasn't playing the same game as everyone else. It wasn't until junior high that I began to get a sense of other people. But even then I tended to relate to people as groups, as social dynamics more than individual friends. These are

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[blade_bunny]

Perhaps. I am somewhat familiar with Asperger's, and while I identify with aspects of it, some things just don't fit. I wouldn't expect that I would be able to read people nearly so well. I tend to be the friend people confide in. I get along and identify with just about anyone, to a fault at times.

Most people with Asperger's, I believe, feel the sort of relationship to their intellectual life as I do but find social relationships quite difficult. While I've not had trouble with relationships, it often feels like I am not the one in control. I feel disconnected from myself, carried away by the social interaction. Not understanding what is going on but watching myself, running on some unconscious control.

If normal Asperger's represents a missing capability, then perhaps in myself that capability is fully developed but is somehow disconnected. This is fairly wild speculation. I need to read more on the subject.

Thanks for the comment btw.