Thank Heaven! the crisis ( Read more... )

Parents are such bastards! I fucking hate them. How the fuck can i go home for spring break. I'll kill them. They'll kill me. Ass holes. Last time i went home i was only there for an hour before i started to cry. Fuckers. They don't even know what they have done to me. I can not go home. I can not be in the same house as my father. I ( Read more... )

I haven't writen for a while 'cause things have been fucked up. I have been fucked up. I've been fragile. I feel damaged. I've been crying a lot, uncontrolably, at inapropriate times and places. I drank too much at Drew's party and cried for hours. Loud, ugly, out of controle sobbing. On the floor, unable to breath. On my knees begging for ( Read more... )

Spring break is comming up and more than anything I don't want to go home. I have been trying and trying to find something to do instead and this is wha thas developed. I was eating dinner with Drew, Chris, Gean, and Dan and we were disscussing a couple of things. 1) I said that I didn't want to go home fro spring break but that instead I wanted ( Read more... )

I said that I would never be a dresser again, never in my entire life even if i were payed with cholcolate covered brittish men. Well, I am a dresser. I don't even dress anyone, all I do is laundry and ironing. Ain't it glamorous. THat is ok. It's for Revelence which is a mad, crazy, fucked up art form that I'm proud to handle the sweaty socks ( Read more... )

"Thank heaven! the crisis-
The danger is past,
And that lingering illness
Is over at last-"

Feel free to disregard the last entry. I was in a mood. You know how I can be. Feeling much better now. Sorry to be so wierd sometimes. Sorry to be such a bitch.

I feel lonely and depressed and unloved. Not just unloved, but unworthy of love. I feel bad for the poor fuckers who do love me 'cause I'm not worth it, maybe I was once but no longer. I feel like a dissapointment and a let down. well fuck you all for thinking that i was ever anything better than this. this is what i am. I am nothing ( Read more... )

I am feeling so much healthier today. Yay, I'm better than I've been all week. Maybe this evilness isn't strep afterall. Friends have been so good to me while I've been sick. Aasma, Drew, and Andi have stopped by every day to check up on me. I may well have died if it weren't for them. Many thanks! Andi and Scooter got me a masive smoothie ( Read more... )

My ears hurt. why is life so cruel?

I am so sick right now. I have slept almost all day, litterally. I have only been awake for 3 and a half hours all day. I woke up at 12pm and went to class from 12:30 'till 2pm, then I ate lunch and talked to drew and went to sleep again at 3pm. I have just now woken up again. I think I will sleep through my morning classes tomarow 'cause I am ( Read more... )