I feel really weird right now. I had a couple cups of tea, so maybe its the caffeine or something, but I have definitely drank more caffeine than this, and not felt the way I do right now. I feel almost like I am tripping on something. Maybe I got some fucked up bag of tea.. haha. Anyway I got this paper I am writing now I have another one I ( Read more... )

It has occurred to me as I sit at home alone on yet another Friday night that none of my friends really seem all that happy with their lives including myself. I am not really sure what to make of all this. I mean we all have our moments of joy and happiness, but they are often fleeting at least thats what I can gather from talking to a few people ( Read more... )

I am feeling pretty unhappy at the moment, so I am just going to watch different funny ass clips of Andy Samberg shit on Hulu. I feel like I have definitely gotten to a point where I just need some love and affection from a braud, or I will be stuck in this depression. I don't know what to do every time I feel like I make a positive step with a ( Read more... )

Went swimming today at the gym, got to let it all hang out in the sauna yesterday, so I am feeling a little better about myself health wise. My lungs fucking hurt from not breathing well enough in the pool I guess. Been trying to accomplish a lot shit around my house lately reorganized the living room, and my room a little bit. Went and bought a ( Read more... )

I went to therapy/counseling today for the first time in like two months. Shit was cool I think it has been beneficial for me. If nothing else it just helps me too hear about my laziness and shortcomings out loud, which provides me some motivation to try and stay more on top of my shit. It is kind of weird though since my counselor whatever is ( Read more... )

First week of school is over with I am not sure what to make of it at this point. I feel confident I can do well in all my classes like I intend too. Although I have yet to really do anything for any of my classes that I should do. I ordered a few of my books online, but the fucking post office here never leaves me my packages and comes at ( Read more... )

So I got a little less than a week left here in LA, and I haven't really done anything since getting my wisdom teeth pulled on Friday except sit around my mom's pad, watch TV, and take pills. I feel a lot better now I'm not in that much pain anymore, and today I was able to actually eat a normal meal instead of a bunch of soft shit. I have been ( Read more... )

Meh I bought a new cd player for my car today spent more money than I wanted too, but it had to be done I couldn't deal with driving up to Humboldt listening to the radio the whole time, plus I wanted an IPOD hook up, and I plan on having my car for a long time. I have been spending too much money since being back going into more debt with my ( Read more... )

Fuck I feel like shit. I somehow managed to get sick since being back in LA. It has surprisingly been awhile since the last time I was sick, and I guess its not that bad just a cold. I still plan on doing shit especially since sitting around my mom's house by myself all day makes me depressed. Other than this sudden bullshit of coming down ( Read more... )

Yeah, so since I have been back I have been spending pretty much all my time with my family, which is cool, but my broham is leaving tomorrow, so that trend will likely end. Christmas this year was cool I guess my expectations for it were pretty low. I got a few cool gifts, but nothing all that amazing or surprising. My hard work paid of this ( Read more... )