I'm a small town girl but this big city doesn't feel big enough today and you picked the wrong big city for messing with a small town girl because it seems I know every small town big city girl here and I'm happy to be honest with them about your dishonesty

I am in love and I am lost
But I'd rather be broken than empty
Oh, I'd rather be shattered than hollow

Someday this pain will be useful to you ( Read more... )

What counts as love and what counts as heartbreak? What counts as sensitive and what counts as heartache? What counts as too far and what counts as not far enough? What counts as too close and what counts as distant?

There are worse things than being breakable, I'd rather be soft than hard

Those songs your heart broke to, those songs that take you back not in your head but in your insides, those songs that make you feel like your chest is collapsing and your innards are sinking, those songs your heart broke to

Are other people scared of sleeping somewhere alone? Scared of locking both locks because it'll take longer to escape that way? Scared of every noise? Are we all this scared ( Read more... )

The other night Erik and I talked about diaries and keeping secrets and marriage. And he asked what I thought of marriage and I think people should do whatever makes them happy and maybe that I don't know what would make me happy. And yesterday my students asked me if I kept a diary and the other night I thought about the boys I was with this ( Read more... )

Please help me save me from myself.

I still feel overwhelmed by all that I want compared to what I can give. 4 jobs and too many unpaid bills and 36 unanswered phone calls and 398 unread emails. My dream job offered me a chance at a 10 hr/week internship. Can I do it? Can I find the time? Can I find a real job, too? Can I find a way to pay all my bills this month or even next? More ( Read more... )

I usually feel like a do-er, a go-getter. But when it comes to dreams, I'm just paralyzed with fear of failure. I can't send that email, can't edit that photo, can't apply for that internship. I can't try so I can't fail but I can't succeed either.