I bought this cheap skateboard today at the mall and I am sorta good. I was skate'n in the parking lot and my grandma called me to the car and I feel. This awesome guy prolly about 20 years old helped me up. He was like "I've done that plenty of times and I bet you will too" aww he was awesome. I was skate'n all over the house on the hard wood ( Read more... )

well I still feel horrible about making out with ryan when I was going out with dustin and kissing chris and see'n his dick when he is going out with kayla. I hate feel'n like a slut. I don't like me being like it.

Well........ other then the whole slutty thing I did nothing too interesting. I went to the pool a buncha times and my ass is burned. ( Read more... )

merf stupid other computer.... My computer crashed and I'm on my grandparents computer that they don't want AIM on. I haven't talked to any of my friends (cept molly and my baby katelyn). I've calmed down about the whole dustin thing. I'm just pissed that he was so hawt.

So in my lovely week without a computer I've been at my Molly's house with ( Read more... )

I just fuck'n LOVE ppl!!!!!!!!!!! I met this really hawt guy, make out with him, and he says he loves me! BULL SHIT!!!!!!!!!! ETHAN BROKE UP WITH ME AND I'M MAKING OUT WITH A GUY THE NEXT DAY!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?! I DON'T WANT TO BE A SLUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel horrible about it! I have a fuck'n hicky on my neck the day after a ( Read more... )

Yeah... I'm feeling good lately. I don't know what it is thats making me happy. Like last night Chris made me cry and ever since then I've felt really happy and hyper. Adam made me get up at 12 and run around my backyard. The light wasn't on so I used a flash light. I ran around till I saw a lil black bear and freaked out and went inside.

My ( Read more... )

I've never really lost a friend. I would say I lost Derek, Addie, and Anthony but I was so distant from them. But now Nikki.... she didn't die like the others but she hates me now. Its all because of Chris. I hate and love what he is doing for my life. I still wanna talk to him but its hurting my "friends". My life has gotten worse and better ( Read more... )

Kinda a bleeh kinda day. Friends have left me and just not a good day. I've been thinking A LOT lately. I don't wanna turn out the way I am. I woke up this morning with my window blinds wrapped around me ripped from my window. I was in a cold sweat screaming. I dunno whats happening to me. I had to do the ritual thingie 2 times last night to at ( Read more... )

K lets see. You are all worried cause WHY? You think I'm changing HOW? come on don't be shy answer ME! Are you afraid I'm gonna DIE? Are you AFRAID of ME? Please come on.....why are you so afraid for me. I don't GET IT! Its my LIFE so why do YOU care? Do you want me to STOP? It's something I ENJOY! I have FUN with it!

Should I STOP being ( Read more... )

I GOT TO GO TO A GRAVE YARD LAST NIGHT AND TODAY. Last night it was like 11 to 12 and I was with megan and amber. We were sitting in there taking pictures. In this one megan made me stand in the middle of the grave yard BY MYSELF and there was a HUGE orb right next to me. I wasn't very scared. So I kept on taking pictures and in some we saw ( Read more... )

I really don't wanna be me right now.....

I don't want to be the oracle Chris says I am.

I don't want to have to live up to all that I must.

I don't wanna have to see Chris go down in his suicide into a 18wheeler truck....

I can't live with all this.

The school sent me to a fuck'n therapist. She told me I'm a danger to myself. *shrugs* not ( Read more... )