We are all, too some extent, without memory. We correct our memories, slowly over time, telling the story more how we like to think of it, not how it really happened. We imagine ourselves out of reality, and suddenly we are free of all the things that troubled us. The rapes the beatings, oh and there were many of them and many versions, they are ( Read more... )

I'm very sad. I'm writing a book of poems, 1/3 of the way there. I met a boy who looks like Frank Sinatra. I love a girl named Emily Rae, her dad once peed on bob dylan. I don't know how not to think like someones wife.

Chris and I have decided to seperate for a while, I'm in school now, he's going into the peace corps, its for the best. I'm never the less heart broken, even though I did the breaking. Anyway, I wrote this poem for him, thought I'd share it ( Read more... )

I just bought a ticket home!!!!!! I'm flying back to see Chris on October 7th!!!!!!! Hurrah! I will be there for 5 wonderful days. I can't wait!!!!!!

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wow have i not updated in forever. I don't EVEN have the energy to go over the last year of my life. Suffice to say that I am now in school. I didn't got to europe 'cause I got married and Josie started doing heroin. However I did do alot of rad stuff and alot of awful stuff and I'm pretty sure I came out on the other side alive. I'm WAY excited to ( Read more... )

Oh My GOD... I am sooo bored. So I got this rocking new job as a preschool teacher... that’s not the problem ... the problem is I set my lunch break back an hour to be able to have lunch with Chris and he didn't show up... so now I'm just sitting here, trying not to go back early. I'm sure he has a valid reason as he is moving the rest of our stuff ( Read more... )

I just got back from the burning man festival in a place called the Playa outside Reno (it was the most intensely hot/cold desert environment I have EVER been in. And the ground was this hard cracked clay with massive alkaline content that could give your feat chemical burns.. And then dry up and turn into white out dust storms...all kinds of crazy ( Read more... )

Whoa. Did nothing but work since I got back. I love Hawaii, deffinatly moving there, miss my Josie and my Amber. Much revive social life as it has died under the hand of working. (save for breaking into warp tour with everyone the week we got back). OOH and I think chris is going to propose soon. We've been talking about getting hippie married at ( Read more... )

d00d. I have had a very strange week for me. It was boring. I have only had real contact with Chris, my parents, and doctors. Lots of god damn doctors. I hate being sick. so, you wanna know whats happening, it'll be icky... you sure? ok. So I got sick with what appearred to be a UTI 3 months ago. Since then I have been given 3 rounds of antibiotics ( Read more... )