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New Year, New Outlook
Man i'm looking forward to what this year could bring me. The part that i don't have a boyfriend hurts but it doesn't really bother me anymore. I'm excited about my birthday. I'm getting money from my dad and i'm getting a very good check from work. I'm going to get me some new clothes for my birthday. I need new clothes so bad. My style has ( Read more... ) -
Coming to the end of another year/ look people, happy for the first time in a while
Its the last few hours of 2005. I'm excited. Its a time to start anew. A time to recreate myself and be who i want to be. A time to leave my painful memories of the past behind. I'm excited because if things go like i hope a lot of good things are going to happen this year. Like I finally might be able to move out and leave this part of my life ( Read more... ) -
Why
I'm sitting here looking at the computer screen with tears streaming down my face. Why you ask? Is it maybe because over the last few days i've realized how much one person means to me? Is it because over the last few days i've realized the unbarable pain I've been feeling is being caused by his empty answers? Or is it because i'm afraid of losing ( Read more... ) -
Its what time
Dang i didn't even realize it was 1 in the morning. That tells you how awake i am. After reading some of the things Jenn went through with robert it sounds like our guys put us in the same situation. The last time i talked to Shawn was two days ago. At least i think it was two days, maybe more. I know i didn't talk to him yesterday or today. so Man ( Read more... ) -
Alone
I feel so alone in the world. For the first time in a really long time i thought that i had a relationship that would last a long time. I thought the guy really cared about me then right before what would have been a year, Christmas, New years, and my birthday he ends it. He says that he just wants to be friends. I didn't know ignoring somebody was ( Read more... ) -
I'm not ok.
For those of you that know already and those that don't. Shawn and i have been broken up since december 1st. I'M NOT OK. but thanks for asking. I'm having a hard time getting through it so if you want to call me i would love to talk. Later -
well, I don't know
I talked to shawn a little bit when i was between cleaning stuff in the house. I don't know how much more i can take. I love him and I want things to work between us but i don't know how long i can wait for him. Its getting painful without him. especially in a time when we were getting together last year. this was the time when we were flirting and ( Read more... ) -
School
Well schools almost out. Next week I have finals, yepee. Pretty soon I will need to start working on my portfolio that is due on Monday. I need to print everything out and put it together. I also have to study for my history, math, and learning strategies finals. I'm more worried about math then anything else. Man I'm gonna be so busy over ( Read more... ) -
This is new
I may be switching from xanga to this one. I'll see how it goes. I'm just trying to get through this all. Get past what is going on with me and Shawn. I still love him I just don't know if I want to wait until he calms down. Cause I will say this, if we get back together he better be treating me different then he has been for a while. Well i think ( Read more... )