+today drove up to norristown and hung out with blaine.. first time we hung out since like august/september? he did my hair and i fucking love it ( Read more... )

ouch?

i fucking begged you for help with tears in my eyes.

you just walk away. in and out. well next time you come looking for me i may not be around.

nowyouseemenowyoudontnowyouneedmenowyoudont

i cant sleep. i cant eat. i cant live.

i just had a dream ( Read more... )

this country is going to shit and i don't want to live through it. we're drowning from above. anyways, the events of today have upset me to the point where i went to sleep for 2 hours, only to wake up to.. not a surprise, just reality. our souls are dying. i don't think anyone realizes how serious everything is. i'm so ashamed. never had to say it ( Read more... )

as much as i say i'm ok... i'm not.

i want to be... but i can't be.

one minute i love, next i hate. how fucked up.

ITS SATURDAY AND IM HOME ALONE AND SHOULDN"T BE BUT CHOOSE TO BE.

sigh.. sleep now and then work at 8.

pointless once more.

9monthslater.

So i've been fucked up the past two nights and it's fucking awesome. it's like millersville all over againnn except i'm alone. wait... i was alone then too. oh weels. so katie came in today to see me and i was so happy and i love her soooo mcuh and she needs to be around more aoften because i sasid so. by now i'm so tired. so last night i thought ( Read more... )

it feels so good to be me.

i'm dying to feel something. anything.

but all i feel is... nothing.

they only realize how special it is when it's almost gone....

time to shower away the day.