Now that we are approaching a new year I want to get back on track with my excersising and I want to get my eating habits under control. I wanna be like I was when I left the hospital a couple years back. Which means no sweets, smaller portions, LOTS of water and sugar free jello :D And I gotta start going on my daily walks again. And jogging and ( Read more... )

Some of my friends haven’t made much of an effort to stay in contact. That’s life, I guess. Some friends just grow apart and distance doesn’t help matters. It’s weird when I see some people and I think about how little I know about their lives now, when I used to be such a big part of their lives before.

But there are some friendships that have ( Read more... )

I don’t need anything extravagant. I don’t need lots of money or lots of friends. I just want a simple life. I wanna surround myself with good people and I want someone to protect and love and care for. I want to be around my family. I want to live comfortably. I want stability.

That’s all.  I just don’t know how I am going to make it happen.

I was asked on a forum to describe my first sexual experience with another chubby man. I responded with this.

I was 14 :/ A friend had hooked me up with a friend from her school. We both spent the night at her house and we all watched a few movies and shit. He kept stroking me through my jeans and I just kept watching the movie like nothing was ( Read more... )

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I remember when I was in middle school and I was pretty much obsessed with the soundtrack for The Bodyguard. Whitney had such an amazing voice and I was just in awe of it. I remember sitting in the bus and listening to her songs on my cd player over and over and over again.

I haven’t been too affected by very many celebrity deaths, not since Bea ( Read more... )

It’s a wonder I have any friends at all. Then again, all of my friends are in Ohio. I miss them so badly sometimes. I miss getting drunk with Jordan. I miss getting Starbucks and hanging out at the mall with Brennen. Smoking hookah and going for late night McDonald’s with Val. Going to church with Maria and Katie. I miss going to concerts with ( Read more... )

It’s been a couple weeks since I stopped working out. I’ve still been going on long walks, but that’s not really enough to get me where I want to be. This morning I jogged on the treadmill before breakfast, for about 20 minutes. This afternoon I did a weight lifting exercise for half an hour, with some cardio mixed in for good measure. I’d like to ( Read more... )

Let’s say you are dumb enough to take a substance without knowing the facts of how it will affect your body. If you were to have a bad reaction, who among your “friends” would actually risk their own ass to take you to a fucking hospital?

 Weigh In : 280.1 lbs ( Read more... )