There are times when you realize who matters and who doesn't. And then you shrug your shoulders and dust them off cuz it doesn't matter. The few people that stay with you are the only ones that matter and those who choose to see you in a different light and abandon you are the ones that don't. While you're off going crazy and crying these people ( Read more... )

Well, yeah just when one thing is working out for me it all seems to blow up in my face ( Read more... )

HOLY SHIT!!! I totally forgot that I had one of these damn things and with everything that has happened, it is SERIOUSLY due for an update.

O.k. well let's see, this summer was one of my craziest ones. I don't think I've EVER consumed so much alcohol.  There was also a lot of drama, the whole back and forth with the Marco thing. =/  I finally made a ( Read more... )

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You know what I find funny? Statements like "I can stop smoking whenever I want, I just don't want to." Could that be because you truly can't? Or the famous, "I'll just do it one more time." When it's the 3rd or 4th time they say that. Or the one I love, "I can take care of myself, I don't need anyone worrying about me I just drink and smoke a lil ( Read more... )

I'm single again. I need time for myself, I feel like I'm too young to think about forever right now. I don't even know what I want. If I keep Marco with me like that, then it's unfair to him. Maybe he doesn't even know what he wants. What if now that we're not together he actually realizes he doesn't want me. I feel bad, but I think I'm doing us ( Read more... )

You know, lately I've been avoiding everyone. Whenever I think of my friends I just want to like #$%! them all up. Yeah, I mean nothing personal(I think). It's just sometimes I get tired of hearing the same old shit from the same old people. It gets to me. I want change I guess, but in a way I don't. My life is a flat line, like when a heart stops ( Read more... )

In general every thing is fine I guess. I have my good moments and my bad. My desperate moments mixed in with the suffocation. You know just life. I've got it good, I guess, I mean I've stopped worrying so much about the "What if's?" and I'm trying to relearn how to just live in the moment. It hard, sometimes I feel like I'm not a kid anymore. I ( Read more... )

You know, it's funny when little things happen and you finally realize that you had one person who could give three fucks about you. I lose a friend and it was their fault, but they don't even care. Life goes on right? Well, it still fucking hurts.

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