friday nite fun, and hopefully healing and calming down. i really need a vacation from everyone and everything including reality. and miranda actually caters to me and spoils me haha. you can die from alcohol poisoning right?

She never lets me in,
Only tells me where shes been,
When she's had too much to drink.

"all you ever do is screw things up" - my mom ( Read more... )

i hate my town, i hate my friends, i hate my exes, and most of all i hate myself. whats up with all this shit, i need some positiveness. but this weekend should calm me down a good bit, lets hope so anyway.

done wrong
ani difranco

the wind is ruthless
the trees shake angry fingers at the sky
the people hunch their shoulders
hold their collars over their ears and run by
it's a cold rain
it's a hard rain
like the kind you find in songs
i guess that makes me the jerk with the heartache
here to sing to you about how i been done wrongi am sitting, ( Read more... )

i kno you are reading this so let me ask you something, do you want me to stay single or move on? cuz its gunna be a very long hard road to get over you baby and if you say go ahead and find someone else i will do it. but if you want me to wait till whenever ill do it. i knew this was going to happen. aud if you even want me in the least then ( Read more... )

so im working on crying myself to sleep tonite, yay for me. im so in love with her, and she doesnt feel the same. i kno she loves me but i dont think shes in love with me. who knos, im so fuckin tired but i just cant sleep. i guess i should go back to tryin to sleep since i have work tomorrow. i told her i need time to heal before i can be ( Read more... )

and just when i thought i had the waterworks under control she called back. "dont do anything stupid". well perhaps you should have called after you did the damage. cuz ive already done mine, for the time bein anyway. honestly whats another scar among the many? too bad you didnt get to give me the G like i wanted, but its there anyway.

well when this journal first began i was tryin to get over shaye. and yanno what if i look back, not as far as entries go but in my heart, this hurts more than with shaye and i have never even laid eyes on this girl, nor felt her touch. does that mean i love her any less than someone i have? nope. in fact i love her so much more than anyone ( Read more... )

Yeah I dunno why but from now on the journal is friends only.

no matter what happens i meant everything i said. i just wish i could find someone who loves me as much as i love them and is as devoted as i am. read the old poems, because unlike you they dont lie. if you cant do this tell me now because i dont want to be working my ass off for nothing. you need to let me kno if you love me as much as i love ( Read more... )