So today a good friend of mine told me I need to smile and start laughing because every minute we waste frowning is a moment we miss laughing or smiling or something like that haha even though she was joking when she told me this she is oah very right. Im sick of walking around with a sad look on my face. It doesnt help me. And it doesnt help ( Read more... )

Lately I dont even know what to write in here. It seems as if everytime I come home I dont even have time to think. My life is just so occupied now that it bugs me. I wake up at like 6:20 have to get ready for school and then sit there untill almost 3 o'clock. Then I have volleyball. Practices are either till almost 5:30 or when we have games I get ( Read more... )

Okay..so today definatly wasn't one of my better days. Infact I really am not happy lately. But O well. I am not getting into that subject. What im really here for is to type my song. Sometimes I actually like being "depressed" because thats when my train of thought kicks in. It seems as if I could just write forever. That nothing in the world ( Read more... )

So ive decided that my summer went by way to fast.Its funny one day its the beginning of summer and your all excited about making plans and things then the next minute its the nite before school. Ive realized all my "plans" for summer definatly didnt happen. But i guess thats good because instead I did other things. What makes me sad is I started ( Read more... )

Ive come to realize how much this town honsetly needs to burn. And I say that in the nicest possible way. Yesterday I got to hangout with some very cool people. Lauren introduced me to a kid named Cory who was so unbelievably talented with art it was amazing. Most people would think this kid is weird and scary but deep down he is very nice and ( Read more... )

Today has just been a very crappy day. I wake up at 7:30 because we are supposed to leave at 8 to go to Alliance for volleyball. And what happens we dont leave till 9. What the fuck. I laid out there on the ground trying to sleep. I finally got to feel what being homeless was like. Then I come home and hear we are going to the mall so I shower and ( Read more... )

Well as I was sitting here listening to music just basically having a quiet calm boring night I had a wide eye opener from a friend of mine. It had to do with Relationships and Friendships. After having this conversation Im actually sitting here thinking, pondering on myself and the situation. Ive come to realize that maybe I am deep down a shallow ( Read more... )

I really havent been in the mood to write about anything. Ive been busy this past week and things and thoughts havent been on my mind much. Well actually, they have, but just not enough to take time to write about them. Its been really awkarward for me latley. I was really happy and everything having all kinds of fun. But something inside me was ( Read more... )

This past week ive noticed a change. It seems as if people are finally starting to come together to "hangout" just when summer is ending. It seems as if everyone this summer has been in their own little shell. It has been kind of nice getting to see everyone. Everyone hanging out with there friends and just having fun. But it also kind of angers me ( Read more... )

I was sitting in my room looking in my mirror. I was just looking deep and wondering about the world. And ive come to realize that there are so many "ideas" of how and what your supposed to look like. Have you ever done that? Looked in the mirror and said "okay this is how I want/am supposed to look" People spend so much time covering what they ( Read more... )