I wonder how much it hurts to die...

well of late ive been doing nothing other than sitting in the house, listening to music, smoking erb a little here and there, and popping alot of pills to try and not feel as depressed...idk what else to say cuz i suck at life and nothing is at all interesting about me or whats going on in my life...yea... ( Read more... )

49 hours and 46 minutes to go
but who's counting. i just thought
I'd let you know
I filled my head with your voice.
And now I'm drowning,
Well I wrote this song for you.

You can stay tonight,
And make everything alright.
You can hold me down,
And tell me that you're right.
Tell me what it's like to be alone.

And we have this down,
Unlike everybody.
I'll spend ( Read more... )

And you can't deny
that I'll be the one mistake
you carry forever
and you can't pretend now
that you thought I'd forget
to notice you weren't gone
but the truth is...
its pointless
I'll make my own world somehow
where I control who stays
you won't leave because you
won't know how to run away
I'll make you care that I am
running here without you
I'll make you ( Read more... )

Sometimes i get so depressed i throw up....alot. Thats only started happening after we broke up...Sometimes I cut so deep it doesnt even bleed...it just turns purple...idk, i guess im trying to say that im dieing without you...mabey its better off if im dead?...idk my mind races so much and nothing that goes thru my head is positive...sometimes i  ( Read more... )

Let me start out by saying that i miss you more than i can even explain. I know you dont belive a word i say and its understandable...but i want you to belive me so bad cuz im being honest...and i know where supposed to talk about everything, but how can i talk to you if i can barely breathe when your in my presence?..idk, i guess im being dumb, ( Read more... )

Darkness chokes my emotions
Your breath numbs my soul
Stand with me, by my side
Take my hand and lead the way
Out from the shadows and into the real world
Show me how to live a life owned by regret
My blood runs cold, lifeless in shame
Now is the time, to right the wrong
Inside my veins, poison words lie
Within a mind as guilty as yours
take what is left ( Read more... )

It's so nice sitting very still,
in a room where no one else can feel
the pain that breaks my heart each day, I'm not ok.
Sunlight shining through my window,
let's me know that I'm still alive
Why did I ever let you inside my heart? I'm such a fool.
Paint my face in shades of blood and grey
and take the seat right next to me
But I should've known that ( Read more... )