trying to move on

[bleuchik11]

i'm sitting at my school office with a million and one things to do before tomorrow for both school and boychoir and all i can think about is dropping everything and just driving away and never looking back. not that i'm unhappy here at school, i love my job and i love  my students. my mind just keeps going back to the last things me and andy said

Comments

[fragile_kiss]

first of all, i think you're a really strong individual. it takes a strong person to be in a long distance relationship where you have little communication with your significant other. however, it takes an even stronger person to end a relationship you put so much into, but which you knew you deserved more. i'm sorry things ended the way they did, but you've got a lot going for yourself and focusing on yourself is the best thing you can do for yourself right now & i think you already know that :]

<3

[bleuchik11]

thank you so so so so so much...it means soooooooooooo much more coming from you...

[stellarmanda]

damn.
this may sound somewhat harsh, but it sounds like you got out at just the right time. you didn't let those "little" issues turn into much bigger ones. those are the kinds of things that often don't change until it's wayyyy too late, or until that person grows up a little. You really did do what's best for both of you, military/long distance or not. I really hope you feel better about it soon, you deserve it! :-)

[bleuchik11]

that's what i was afraid of...that the "little" things would become huge, because that's where it was going. it just feels shitty knowing that what i had in mind for us isn't going to happen. oh well...

i got your babyshower invite!!! :)

[citymusings]

*hugs* I'm sorry this is so hard.

[bleuchik11]

thanks...

[kalani1285]

Don't think twice about your decision, you've made the right one. I'm in the same situation now, and you know what? We may never understand the military. It's hard as hell, and while we acknowledge that, it certainly doesn't make it any easier. Sounds like he has a little growing up to do (what boys dont?) but he will realize what he's lost when the voicemails, letters and emails aren't flooding his inbox..don't worry. Who knows, maybe when he gets home you will all work it out...but the strain of a military relationship (let alone a long distance one) isn't worth it, if your partner isnt in it 100%. now..if I could only heed my own advice ;) Keep your chin up!!

[bleuchik11]

lol thanks so much...you also, keep YOUR chin up and if you feel that your advice to me is good for you, then take it!! :) what's an LJ for if you can't vent? :)

[mehganftw]

*hugs* I know it's hard to go through this. If you ever want to come over and hang out, you can. My couch is comfy too. You'll be better for it in the long run, and he doesn't even know all the great things he's missing. You're an awesome person, and you deserve to be treated like a goddess and nothing less.

[bleuchik11]

thanks, this also means a lot coming from you...i will most definitely hit up on that offer! :) once this semester winds down, i'll send you a message. i'd love to meet your kids!!