In which Lucy is introspective.

[blewoutthestars]

Just lately I've started to feel the way I felt during my first two years at university - and I'm sure you all remember the epic moan-fest that was. The anxiety, the worry about tiny things which really don't matter, the panic attacks. I've had them all before, and they're all coming back.

For the first time though, I'm asking: is this normal? Do

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[coeur_de_noir]

It really depends on your boss and how she's likely to react. If she is a normal, sane boss, you shouldnt feel any anxiety at all because its just business and you are entitled to leave - the worst that can happen is that she says no. If she is a psycho hose beast who will guilt trip you and make you feel like a criminal for even asking then a degree of anxiety would be understandable. Saying that, I dont think stressing to the point of tears is something everyone does in a situation like this

[blewoutthestars]

See, the weird part is that once I find her I have no worries about the conversation - basically all I need to do is remind her of a conversation we had last week and tell her that I have the written request she wanted, then answer any questions she might have (she has to take it to HR on my behalf etc. etc.) So I don't even really know what it is that's worrying me so much... just that it's outside of my regular routine really, and I don't like things that aren't in my routine.

I haven't seen anyone but I'm starting to realise that maybe this isn't quite how I'm meant to function. I think maybe speaking to someone might be a good idea - if I can get over the anxiety of going to the doctor ;) (At least I can still laugh about it, hey?!) It would be kind of nice to feel able to just Get On With Shit. I'll try some of those techniques from that website too and see if they help.

Thanks hun. I've got a lot in my life to be happy about, I'm sure I'll get this figured out! x

[coeur_de_noir]

I hope it went ok <3 I think talking to someone about that anxiety is a really good idea, you know - cos I dont think it has to be that way if you dont want it to be. Good luck!