it's so much harder to write anything when all that was your passion in life has dropped you like a ton of bricks, I feel drained beyond belief and have been for weeks now, it's kinda like someone just filled my body with a few hundred volts of electricity and I'm trying to recover from the shock but my body just won't respond to my brains signals ( Read more... )

*breathes out slowly*, I am not a perfect guy, my heart and mind have many flaws, and I hate myself for everyone of them, and for just a short time I didn't hate myself completely, but I lost that, I lost a lot, and I just keep losing more, with each passing moment. I'm surrounded by many good people, cute pets, a good job, and I even have a life ( Read more... )

if only I could write a single word of you, without wishing for a death of the single most painful nature to befall me, I would give up everything for a molecule of peace, and the numbness that only absinthe and pcp can bring.

All I want right now is to have some rough sex, and then I want to cuddle.

"it's not gonna work out." said so calmly, "meaning to talk to you for a while." rehearsed, I felt it comeing, and still it hurts more than I ever could have possibly imagined, I really believe I'd feel better off dead, she decided we were through, I don't know where it all goes from her, she continues to smile, I honestly don't think she even ( Read more... )

dear universe,
today was shit.
-brendan

I'm really starting to get annoyed with everything, everyone around me is driveing me insane, they are all so full of shit, I can't believe it, half of them I just want to forget about completely, I may as well it's not as if they would be smart or mature enough to stop and think, "hay, I haven't talked to him in a while, maybe I ought to call and ( Read more... )

God, I can't believe I'm up at fucking five o'clock in the morning, I woke up about an hour and a half ago and I just can't get back to sleep, I guess I'm feeling more aggravated than I thought. I had a pretty frustrating day yesterday, I got a flat tire, I'm pretty sure some dick put a hole in it (I did not expect that to sound the way it does), ( Read more... )

god, my life just keeps trying to suck more and more. she doesn't love me, and she doesn't want to leave him, i must be worthless.

I feel terribly tired, I've been overworking my body this week, and it's starting to get really upset with me, it feels a lot like a bunch of people ganged up on me and started beating the crap out of me, like I've got a bruise on every part of my body, all I want to do is sleep, but at the same time I want to stay up and do... anything. School's ( Read more... )