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Title: Should I go Back?
Author: blind_by_fear
Pairing: Benji/Billy
Fandom: GC
Summary: Should I go back?
Disclaimer: I own no one, only the wacky, twisted thoughts in my head.
My eyes opened, blurry black shadows mingled in and out of bright, small spotlights, vines growing between the merging colors. Leather laces through metal holes; increasing perception making it clear that this mask has been holding me prisoner for some time.
Last night it came as a picture
With a good reason, a warning sign
This place is void of all passion
If you can imagine, it’s easy if you try
Believe me I failed this effort
I wrote a reminder this wasn’t a vision
This time, where are you Houston
Is somebody out there, will somebody listen?
I quickly throw the belt off of my face, sitting up and seeing the illuminated numbers. 6:45. Forty-five minutes have gone by since it was announced to my world. Since then two hamsters have died. I see all the cages, all inhabited by the lively rodents. You always cared too much about them. You just walked from the room forty-five minutes ago. I could have stopped you. But I didn’t. I fell asleep instead, a leather belt choking my vision.
Should I go back, should I go back, should I
I feel alone and tired
Should I go back, should I go back, should I
I hope I won’t forget you
I have a picture of you hanging in the hall, it should haunt me but it comforts me, showing me what’s finally gone and out of my life, but voices like your brother’s and sister’s tell me I should go back and work this out, though they’ve not seen me since. I would really like to remember you and all that you put me through, but I might get too caught up in the simple pleasures I forgot when I was with you.
My head is made up of memories
Most of them useless delusions
This room is bored of rehearsal
And sick of the boundaries
I miss you so much
When I try to forget you I can’t, I think of you coming back, and try to live life by what it was like with you. I feel like I’ve known no other way. I hate to miss you now. My eyes drift to the clock, my body returning into the previous position. 7:00. One hour that you’ve not come back. And I hate to miss you, but I can’t live without you.
Should I go back, should I go back, should I
I feel alone and tired
Should I go back, should I go back, should I
This time I don’t want to
Should I go back, should I go back, should I
I feel alone and tired
Should I go back, should I go back, should I
I hope I won’t forget you
Those were my hamsters, by the way, Benji.
- Billy
Author: blind_by_fear
Pairing: Benji/Billy
Fandom: GC
Summary: Should I go back?
Disclaimer: I own no one, only the wacky, twisted thoughts in my head.
My eyes opened, blurry black shadows mingled in and out of bright, small spotlights, vines growing between the merging colors. Leather laces through metal holes; increasing perception making it clear that this mask has been holding me prisoner for some time.
Last night it came as a picture
With a good reason, a warning sign
This place is void of all passion
If you can imagine, it’s easy if you try
Believe me I failed this effort
I wrote a reminder this wasn’t a vision
This time, where are you Houston
Is somebody out there, will somebody listen?
I quickly throw the belt off of my face, sitting up and seeing the illuminated numbers. 6:45. Forty-five minutes have gone by since it was announced to my world. Since then two hamsters have died. I see all the cages, all inhabited by the lively rodents. You always cared too much about them. You just walked from the room forty-five minutes ago. I could have stopped you. But I didn’t. I fell asleep instead, a leather belt choking my vision.
Should I go back, should I go back, should I
I feel alone and tired
Should I go back, should I go back, should I
I hope I won’t forget you
I have a picture of you hanging in the hall, it should haunt me but it comforts me, showing me what’s finally gone and out of my life, but voices like your brother’s and sister’s tell me I should go back and work this out, though they’ve not seen me since. I would really like to remember you and all that you put me through, but I might get too caught up in the simple pleasures I forgot when I was with you.
My head is made up of memories
Most of them useless delusions
This room is bored of rehearsal
And sick of the boundaries
I miss you so much
When I try to forget you I can’t, I think of you coming back, and try to live life by what it was like with you. I feel like I’ve known no other way. I hate to miss you now. My eyes drift to the clock, my body returning into the previous position. 7:00. One hour that you’ve not come back. And I hate to miss you, but I can’t live without you.
Should I go back, should I go back, should I
I feel alone and tired
Should I go back, should I go back, should I
This time I don’t want to
Should I go back, should I go back, should I
I feel alone and tired
Should I go back, should I go back, should I
I hope I won’t forget you
Those were my hamsters, by the way, Benji.
- Billy