death becomes her...
this really, really sucks. i have such a problem and no solution. i'm so sad...looking at the future that lies ahead isn't all that great.
so here's the deal: i like a guy named casey. he's 18 and i'm 14. kind of sad, yeah i already know that. but anywhosers...i talk to him kind of and we are sort of friends. the age gap makes a huge difference. and yeah. he and a super good friend of mine are all 3 supposed to hang out this christmas/winterish deal. and i'm just kind of dreading it. b/c once he graduates this year he's off to california and i'll never see him again. and he's such a great guy. i don't think anybody can fill his shoes. so yeah. i'll have this am-azing year of memories of him, he'll leave, i'll have a whole fucking summer to miss him, go back to school and the daily grind w/o my gomez. it will be so boring. he just kind of adds his spice to everything. LMAO! i don't know what spice is, but i just said it, so i'm leaving it. so i'm just kind of thinking...is it really worth it to try and be his friend when i know that i'm just going to be sad in the end? i'm really thinking about this. it's bugging me. b/c i'm sad already. i see him in class and i'm just thinking in my head, "only a couple more months and i'll be crying over you while you're gone..." that's why i hate growing up. the older you get, the more things change to they way you don't want them to be. i'm terribly sad already...
alley
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demolition lovers:
Hand in mine, into your icy blues
And then I'd say to you we could take to the highway
With this trunk of ammunition too
I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me
And after all the the things we put each other through and
I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there's nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running
But this time, I mean it
I'll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold
Until the end, until this blood
Until this, I mean this, I mean this
Until the end of...
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold
But this time, we'll show them
We'll show them all how much we mean
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of every...
All we are, all we are
Is bullets I mean this
As lead rains, will pass on through our phantoms
Forever, forever
Like scarecrows that fuel this flame we're burning
Forever, and ever
Know how much I want to show you you're the only one
Like a bed of roses there's a dozen reasons in this gun
And as we're falling down, and in this pool of blood
And as we're touching hands, and as we're falling down
And in this pool of blood, and as we're falling down
I'll see your eyes, and in this pool of blood
I'll meet your eyes, I mean this forever