One minute I'm the family saint now I appear in paradox - santa o demonio?

[blissfulmisses]

Reading my old entries I no longer recognize the brother who I was once nursed in a surrogate mother sort-of role. I did it with no conscious resentment but it seemed as though he grew to believe in this complex conspiracy that evolved over time as he was medicated with higher and higher amounts of lithium, serroquel, and other mood stabilizers

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[rosewart]

I look at my old diaries and realise that since my brother Jamie's death in 2005, my whole family has scattered and lost any form of cohesiveness. My youngest brother has barely spoken five words to me since then.

The hurt that comes with it is huge.

I'm sorry you & your brother are so separate now.