praise the lord! ok so he called me! i know how pathetic i must sound. but i dont care. i love him and i was so happy to hear from him! we arent the back together right now but we are definatly working on it! it felt soooo good to hear him say i love you. anyway now that that saga is over i have a lot of stuff to concentrate on. like writing a ( Read more... )

you know what i am so glad that i have such a great support system. i really appretiate everyones thoughts and comments. it feels great to know that so many people are there for me. i love everyone that has put their two cents in on this stupid situation. thank you so much for your support. i know that i must seem like a total pathetic asshole ( Read more... )

right about now i fucking hate everything. i am so depressed it isnt even funny and its all becuase of cliff. i cant believe he is doing this. how he has embarrassed me. i really hope he realizes what he is doing. why has it gotten this bad between us? we used to be so good together. i thought we would be together forever. i feel like being so mean ( Read more... )

i have had i great week end despite the obvious heart breaking factors. emily perrotta come down for a little visit. we had a great time. i wish we had had more time to do other stuff but i did enjoy the time we had. i think i need to start being a little more rational about this whole cliff situation. calling him 10 times in one day and him not ( Read more... )

happy halloween ( Read more... )

such a rainy past couple of days. all this reain is a little depressing. it makes me want to be with that certain someone even more than usual. i swear that everyday for the past 2 weeks i have wanted to call in every morning. i hate waking up so early. but i wont because i really need the hours. 23 days left. not that i am counting down, hehe. i ( Read more... )

24 more days! so yesterday was such a waste of time and money and an ATM card! i cant believe i lost it. again. oh well i am going to try to get to class now maybe i can go to the bank! MuAh!

so being a teacher is definatly something that i would never want to do, ever! i just dont have the patients for it. on a different note, our volunteer day in DC was not as bad as i thought it was going to be. it actually kicked some ass. we got to work the envirocamp, which was a bunch of table with different activities pertaining to conserving ( Read more... )

i swear everytime that i hear the phone ring my heart races. i keep thinking that any minute out of the blue he will call. and everynight i drudge up the stairs in utter dissapointment because he never calls. this of course isnt doing wonders for my overall mood. i think that i am being a bitch to people, more than i am already, i am sorry! i am ( Read more... )

it should be illegal for anyone to have to wake up before 8am. i hate waking up at the ass crack. oh well, deal with it michelle. south park has to be one of the funniest movies ever. its so fucked up i love it! i cant believe that i still have to do isp hours, like 10 of them. i hate that shit. i wish that i had done them sooner becuase now there ( Read more... )