Comments | blkchrrybard: round the bend.....40 years old....wow

blkchrrybard

round the bend.....40 years old....wow

Apr 10, 2007 21:37

Well I'm counting down the days now to my 40th birthday.I had wanted to make it special. Of course at the beginning of the year I had this fantasy about going away for the weekend ( Read more... )

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cluelessinchi April 11 2007, 19:13:54 UTC

It seems that you are going to make it awesome! You are going for what you really want. *grins* I think that is what turning 40 is all about. Things just make sense now. The things that are important seem so much more and the little things in life are just that. It is awesome to be 40 or over 40! Welcome to the club!

blkchrrybard April 11 2007, 19:23:54 UTC

I find myself less inclined to waste time with trivial matters.
It's even hard for me to engage in things outside my goals sometimes. I'm no good at small talk....rather, it takes me a long time to wind down to the point where I can engage in it at all.
I did okay over the weekend at Mel's Grandparents, but they are cool folks, so that makes a difference too.

But on the whole, if it's not a topic that I have a definate interest in, I find myself disconnecting. I think it's my internal clock and instincts pulling me away from wasted time.

It's a good thing.

cluelessinchi April 11 2007, 19:31:16 UTC

That is a good thing... Priorities change now. It is so easy to see what is important in life. I so feel that. I felt as though I was not really living my life until now. I embraced selfishness... I really am learning about what is important and what is not. I really feel that I know myself well enough and am comfortable in me, not to worry about other's issues as much. I think the stuff that I am going through now would have destroyed me in the past. I am really understanding that as long as I am true to myself and to what I believe is the truth other things do not matter as much. I am willing to cut the ties that bind in unhealthy relationships. I feel very empowered now. I also am much more honest that I have been in the past. It is not that I was dishonest before but I was not willing to stick my neck out to say things that mattered to me. I really think that life begins at 40!