I've come to a conclusion....

[blnd_bmbshell]

Yeah, so I know the crypticness of late journal entries is pointless because everyone knows what Im talking about anyways, but it makes me feel like Im being incognito, but anyways. This time, Im laying it all out for you. Names, no metaphors, etc. I thought a lot tonight and I realized that this is my journal, and I should write what I want to

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[mousie962]

I think that's common though. I was like that with Brian. I thought I was so over him and then I'd see him and I realized I wasn't I think looking at it now, I'm not sure if I ever did love him, but then again, seeing him again, maybe I would have. It's just ... life I guess. You have to deal with it and attempt to move on as hard as it is. The good thing is, it's not forever, no matter what it feels like now.

[blnd_bmbshell]

Yeah, it does feel like it will never go away, but the problem for me is, I dont even know where to begin to start moving on and as much as I say I want to move on, I honestly dont think I do, which is kind of a big roadblock. I dont really know what to do to make myself WANT to get over it. This whole thing has been something that has basically defined me for the past 3 years, and as much as I dont want to admit that, its the truth, and like I said, I dont even know where to begin.

I really need some psychological help. Maybe not even that. Maybe just a counselor or something. Something, anything. LoL.

Thanks for the advice, I'll talk to you later on :-)

[miszjaness]

It wouldnt hurt like this if I didnt love him
so unbelievably true