i fell asleep last night not needing to call you.
i woke up feeling numb.
i piece together the supplies that i will need for today.
rum
black eyeliner
black dress
black boots
frazzled hair
frazzled thoughts
not so irrational as it may seem
what time has been wasted!
need to catch up

i looked for comfort in strangers arms
never knew them, never will
took goodness and came all over it.
what a mess my head is
i doubt i will ever want to be touched again.

soft
thrilling
brilliance
my mind sleeps tangled in your hair.

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i make things with my crooked hands
breath life into tossed away beauty
magic maker
energy abound
be careful for things you will.

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morning dawns
an appointment soon
might wash away my lady hood
won't mean a thing
won't mean anything

i want to sing
i want to be heard clearly
slowly
feed the thoughts
soundtrack of my mind
listen

i feel depression creeping in
i miss your face
your playful touch and wandering green eyes
the smell of your hair
heavy head resting in the hollow of my neck.
your laugh echos in my sleep
i want so badly to hold you
but i can not.