My defective heart

[blond_not_blind]

Sometimes I ask God why he gave me this defective heart? Did he really mean for me to go through life loving all of the wrong men who are incapable of loving me the same way in return?

I try so hard to be a good person and do right by others. Why am I alone again?

Comments

[axcess_denied]

(((hugs)))) sorry sweets. hope things look up soon.

[az_starshine]

I'm sorry, hon. <3

I went through a lot of bad relationships before I finally found a good one and got married - I think I went through the bad ones so I would finally be able to recognize a good one when one came along.

[cowboybud]

*kiss*

Although I've never met you in person, I've been following you long enough to know you are a good person and have a big heart. You've given me some good advice. You deserve better than what you've gotten. I've thought that ever since you were married to whats his name.

I've pretty much given up myself; I guess just concentrate on your friends and your kids and the things that make you happy.

[blond_not_blind]

Thanks Buddy. This hurts way more than whats-his-name. I guess because I didn't see it coming. For once I had a man who treated me kindly AND was helpful all around. I still don't get WHY, part of it is likely the alcoholism. It's harder to hide your drinking when you live with someone.

[lone_thoughts]

You don't have a defective heart hun. As a matter of fact, you have a wonderfully working heart, it's full of kindness, honesty and love to give and share with someone who truly deserves it. Like some of the other folks have said, sometimes you have to go through a series of not so great relationships on the road to one that you deserve.

*big hugs*