i keep having nightmares about someone i know. it's terrible and i feel so guilty. they're really freakin bizarre and terrifying and eerie and blah i hate them. usually they start out with us having some sort of romantic relationship/tryst or whatever...but then things get weird and suddenly i'm caught up in a horror movie that typically ends in my ( Read more... )

Someday all the pain will end. Someday.

also, can i cry now? or is it too soon? too late?

Someone agreed to seek help after our IOOV presentation tonight. I almost cried hearing that news. That is why I live and breathe- to help people better themselves. I don't think I could have been happier than I was in that moment.

lol im drunkj and eating specil K on the dark. hahah qhere is my bowl? where is my spoon? i dont know! hopefully they nake it to my mouth!nom special k ( Read more... )

I call this entry the above because I am literally "dumping" everything off of my shoulders/out of my mind and into the metaphorical toilet that is the internet. Enjoy my shit haha.

• Last Wednesday one of my closest friends at work was fired. I could understand if it was for a legitimate reason, but it wasn't. I could also understand if she sucked at ( Read more... )

Jocie: [Picks up the phone] Thank you for calling the Outback Steakhouse in Burlington. Alyssa speaking, how may I help you?
[I laugh. She hangs up shortly after]
Jocie: HAHA FOOLED THEM!

I can write my own sad words
I don't need yours.
I am disgusting.
My body is deteriorating.
I am not beautiful.
I am not special.
I am not poetic, or graceful
But
I have a fucking soul
That is full of empathy and compassion
I have a fire; it is entirely mine
And it is entirely invincible.

- imgfave

Recent things:

• Mother's Day was nice. Then it sucked. My grandma compared me to Kirstie Alley, who she then referred to as a "fat, dirty rat." That's cool. Then my mom got in a fight with my uncle on the phone during the car ride home. There was a 'daddy hit mommy at the dinner table' silence in the car afterward. Even cooler.
• I'm accepting an ( Read more... )

Also, I just read this in my Psychology of Happiness book. It's discussing how indulging your senses can allow you to be happier. Even imagining things can improve your life situation a little. This part is discussing prisoners in a concentration camp:

My friend, a French painter and Resistance fighter, was put in a concentration camp by the Nazis. ( Read more... )