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[blondelikethat]

im feeling alot of things rite now and i cant quite organize my thoughts. there are a few ppl mad at me rite now and 1 that hates me but its ok cuz the feeling is fucking mutual bitch. wow, im mad but im sad but i cant cry cuz im so happy but i cant smile, cuz your not supposed to smile when you wanna die (see wat i mean?!) i havent updated in like

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[revengefulxkiss]

hey britt...yeah i do still read your lj...kinda sad huh? lol well i hear from josh that u still hate me and that your not my bff anymore and that im a horrible person...maybe it true maybe its not maybe ur saying this outta anger but yeah i think we really need to talk soon im having a hard time with out you...i dunno i guess its like a whole new scary world out there without you...umm call me sometime? like im usually home after 3 everyday so just gimme a call sometime...you know the number.

[revengefulxkiss]

try not to shut urself out anymore britt...i know its hard and im really sorry about brandi...you know even though we havent talked in about a month im still there for you...its been the same stages with me not being bff's anymore with you im going through the same thing...its hard because everytime i hear spicegirls i start to cry. and whenever i read books like gossip girls or the traveling pants series or what not i think about you. and josh always throws in my face how i fucked up...yeah i fucked up by not going...but i thought i could have u there to back my desicion up and im starting to realize why you didnt but you know what i really dont know where my life is going here or in montana. but britt we do need to talk even if its online or on the phone(id rather talk on the phone lol) its crazy not having Brittney McMahon in my life anymore im just falling to pieces left and right and yeah im probably gonna crack when i talk to you too ive been pretty stubborn about this shit too. well i gotta go