I hate christmas. What a nightmare. Ever since I woke up Saturday morning, everything has just gone wrong. The only person that made my entire Christmas was Ryan Sorensen, and even still shit interfered. God, I am so angry. I am just so upset and low and angry. And I smoked last night, which made everything worse. Brought me back to that place this ( Read more... )

Okay, doing some catching up here ( Read more... )

I have tamed Ryan Sorensen, and our relationship is still continuing to grow and become stronger than ever ( Read more... )

Today was such an amazingly beautiful day, up until about 1 hour ago ( Read more... )

It's getting to the point ( Read more... )

First I was afraid ( Read more... )

I am so alone in this world...so alone...

There is no one out there for me...

can anyone hear me out there?

I am so alone...these tears I can't hold inside...WHY THE FUCK DID I SET MYSELF UP TO GET HURT?

I just need someone to hold me...

Well, Ryan and I are more in love now than ever...yesterday was an interesting turn of events, and came to a toast of Mike's Hard Lime of him proclaiming "to a new understanding of us and..." something else I can't remember. We then sat on his floor talking about our life's philosophies on heaven and hell, life, people, all really deep things. It ( Read more... )

He was my first true love...but it has become bitter...I fear the worst is yet to come...he has stopped fighting for my love and the personality I once possesed has vanished...the very person that he fell in love with in the beginning...the love is there, it has just been forgotten because of other things...I know the best thing now is to take ( Read more... )

1) What stickers do you have on your car, if any? I have 1 Beatles sticker, 1 Thrasher Skateboards sticker, 1 "Make Love, Not War" sticker, 1 IAHA sticker & 1 AHA Registry sticker (Arabians), and I did have a sticker that said "Before you say no, learn about Hemp" but I took it off ( Read more... )