Yes I know my entries have been sad but lj is were i let things out should do that in my own personal journal oh well. I'm very happy with my life I have a house I have Eric I have a Job I joined weight watchers and lost 2 pound so far my next meeting is tomorrow and i'm looking forward to see if i lost anymore yayayayaya!!!!

A year ago today I went to my Sisters house to spend the day with her, My Mom and Nephew. Dana and I went out for icecream when we came back my brother in-law was on the phone it sounded bad. Derek came into the living room and needed to talk to my sister. My Mom and I were out on the pourch, it was such a beautiful day out. Derek asked us to come ( Read more... )

I am emotionaly mentally and physicaly drained. I miss my Brother. My head is constantly going. I'm tired.

I AM DRUNK. I AM DRUNK. TRA LALALALA I AM DRUNK I AM DRUNK . BLAH BLAH BLAH. I AM DRUNK I AM DRUNK BLOOP BLOOP BLOOP I AM DRUNK I AM DRUNK HEHEHE3 HEHEHE I AM DRUNK I AM DRUNK. WA WA WA I AM DRUNK I AM DRUBK OOPS DRUNK. YEA YEA YEA I AM DRUNK I AM DRUNK. DRUNK IS A FUNNY WORD HAHAHA I IS DRUNK I IS DRUNK TE HEHE TEHEHE DRUNK DRUNK DRUNK I AM DRUNK ( Read more... )

A year ago today is the last time I saw my brother before died. The last time. I never thought I'd say that.

I fucking miss livejournal!!!!!!!!!

It will be a year in April. I can't believe it's been a year since he died. I miss him so very much. The last time I saw Mike was March 19th at my nephews birthday party. The last time I saw him, the last time I heard his voice and his laughter, the last time I saw him smile, the last time I hugged my brother.

I feel destructive, like i wanna do something bad. I hate the fact that my family and I had our first thanksgiving with out my brother and no one mentioned his name I was mad about that but i didnt speak of him either what kind of person am I? His birhtday is coming up in a couple weeks I can't stand it this world is soo different without him. ( Read more... )

Do you ever feel forgotten? well lately do. jsut forgotten by friends...or ignored i dont know well whatever i guess......

Wow it's been awhile. I figure I'd come back to good old LJ maybe people won't read as much but I guess it's a place to get my thoughts out. It's been 5 months since my brother Mike died and I'm having a really hard time. I'm so angry and upset. I just don't know what to do. Halloween is next month, Mike and I would always order pizza and watch ( Read more... )