A Defense Mechanism Gone Haywire.

[bloodcicle]

I have this uncanny ability to submarine relationships before the vessel has even left the shipyard. I don't mean to do it. It's not a conscious thing and I dont know I'm doing it as it happens. The lightbulb goes off days later and it sucks.

Maybe someday someone will figure it out and call SHENANIGANS on my ass?

Comments

[skh]

Oh, I so hear you! ;.;

[bloodcicle]

Right? LOL!

[chimericslashes]

This is STILL me! One can only take hurt so many times by so many people before they develop ways to protect themselves.

[bloodcicle]

Yeah, but that protection starts to become your enemy. How do you stop it?

[chimericslashes]

That protection IS your enemy..if you figure out how to stop it, please let me know.

[shadow_princess]

Kris, you are beautiful and smart and funny and talented, A quadruple-threat knockout! That is why I like you, because we're so much alike. :)

I think you already have the answer right there. The right guy is going to like you enough to stick around to call bullshit on your shenanigans and say, "Hey, I'm not going anywhere!"

The ones that didn't stick around are tools and good riddance. Because you don't need to be wasting your time on some dumb jerk who can't give you what you need!

Something else I know, you're strong and courageous. Like me, you want love enough to keep putting yourself out there until you get it. And if my opinion counts for anything, I believe you will!

[bloodcicle]

Thank you m'dear. You've been a great online friend. I wish we could hang out one day.

[shadow_princess]

Oh I have no doubt that we'll get together eventually, I'm hoping for way more than one day though! {hugs}

[bitchie_poo]

you're still doing better than i am. i can't even get a conversation out of them. then again i refuse to use dating sites, so that probably doesn't help.

anwyay all your awesomeness, you don't want to waste it on someone not of your caliber. the person who figures out your method will be worthwhile.

[bloodcicle]

The dating sites are ok and get me out there for sure. It can feel a bit forced at times.

[serialkiller]

the one that calls you out? That's the one you keep. in the meantime, work on it... it took me forever to stop thinking Josh was like all the other guys. I am so glad he didn't give up on me.

[bloodcicle]

Yeah, I'm certain of that. I'm so stealth it's going to take someone with specialized vision to see it. LOL!