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Author: New_Unchanged
Title: Someone Like You
Chapter: Day 5 of 28 of my Songfic Challenge, Part 3 of 3 in the ‘Adele Series’
Pairing: Spike/Xander
Rating: PG 13, Nothing Exciting, but I use harsh language
Concrit: Comments only
Disclaimer: I own none of the characters, the lyrics to the songs, or anything else.
Warnings: M/M Paring, but this is a Spander Community so....
Summary:Spike runs into Xander a few years after his break up, on what Spike’s thinks is Xander’s wedding day.
Notes: The Song used for this day is Song- Someone Like You, By Adele
Beta(s): Spike_1790
Challenge: Write a Songfic a day for the entire month of February. Based on a prompt from Lady Q: Write a story or a series of stories based on the 25 most played songs on your ipod. Songs can be shuffled or in order up to the writer.
Spike never came back to Sunnydale after Xander walked in on Angel forcing a kiss on him. He couldn’t bear to see Xander move on. He instead stayed in LA hoping that Xander would come back for explanations after he calmed down. Buffy had been all too happy to call Angel and let him know Anya and Xander were back together, and that put paid to that plan. After a few weeks of letting Angel brood over Spike’s misery they did in fact try the couple thing again.
Even being with Angel all the time and being with someone who knew what he was better than anyone couldn’t help Spike feel less alone. In fact he felt more alone with Angel than he ever had in Sunnydale. Angel made him feel like a pet or a bed warmer and not an equal. All the rubbish about not having a soul and not being his equal.
Spike ended up traveling around the world for a while. While he was in Africa he found a Shaman and tried to get him to perform some mojo to make his worthy of love. What a laugh, he ended up with that pesky soul Angel kept holding over his head. He stopped back in LA to tell Angel that it didn’t matter if he thought he was worthy. There was only one person who he had to prove his worth to. The poof took great relish in telling him that Xander was marrying the demon chit.
I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.
Spike was happy for the whelp. Xander deserved someone he could stand in the sun with. Spike could picture the Whelp’s future laid out. Xander would keep moving up the lines at the construction firm. He and Anya would have a mess of children. Xander would make a great parent. It was a good future for Xander. Better than any one Spike could have given him if they had stayed together.
Spike really didn’t intend to be sitting outside the church in the poof’s car. Spike saw how happy Xander looked in his tux before the ceremony and couldn’t bring himself to go in the church. He ended up in the bar across the street and proceeded to start drowning his sorrows in a pint or five.
A few hours later Xander walked into the bar Spike was drinking at. He sat down and ordered a hard drink and concentrated on it like it held the meaning of life. Spike studied Xander’s face for moment. Just as he was about to look away he met eyes with Xander.
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.
Electricity sizzled in the air. Xander’s expression darkened.
“Why are you here Spike? Didn’t get enough of my pain the first time around? Needed to come watch me at the lowest moment of my life?”
“Sorry pet, I know I’m not welcome here, but you’re right- couldn’t stay away. Don’t know many people who call their wedding day the lowest moment of their life.”
“Well, I didn’t get married. I chickened out. A demon ruined that too.”
“Fancy talking about it?”
“No,” Xander said with his lips pursed. “Fine! it wasn’t the demon’s fault. I was scared to begin with. I’ve seen a lot of marriages go bad. I was scared I didn’t love Anya enough to make it work.”
“You’re a good man and you would make a good husband and father,” Spike replied.
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days
Xander let out a bark of laughter. “Oh, so now the guy who made me fall in love with him and cheated on me is giving me lessons on my self worth.”
“I didn’t cheat on you,” Spike murmured.
“Spike, what’s done is done, but don’t lie to me,” Xander said as he held up his hand in a stop motion. “You must think I’m stupid. I saw you and Angel together. Buffy told me you were in LA last time she visited. You never came back and tried to fix things.”
“Look, you’re right. Angel and I were together, but it wasn’t until months after you walked in on that kiss. Angel kissed me because he had this idea in his head it would be good for us to be together. He did it on purpose so you would catch us. I was caught as off guard as you were.”
“So why didn’t you come back and explain? You just stayed there!”
“You were right when you told me I was beneath you. You belong in the sunlight. You deserve the family and white picket fence that I can’t give you.””
“Why are you here Spike?”
“Because I still love you pet, and I wanted to see for myself that you were happy.”
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.
“The peroxide must have gone to your head because I just told you I’m not happy. I tried it with Anya. I wanted it to work, but I haven’t been happy since I saw you with Angel.”
“Xan, I love you and I want nothing more than to have you in my arms till the next apocalypse, but I meant it when I said you deserved what I can’t give you. I have a soul now pet, but I’ll never be able to love you the way you deserve.”
“What if I told you I would settle for loving me the way you can?”
Title: Someone Like You
Chapter: Day 5 of 28 of my Songfic Challenge, Part 3 of 3 in the ‘Adele Series’
Pairing: Spike/Xander
Rating: PG 13, Nothing Exciting, but I use harsh language
Concrit: Comments only
Disclaimer: I own none of the characters, the lyrics to the songs, or anything else.
Warnings: M/M Paring, but this is a Spander Community so....
Summary:Spike runs into Xander a few years after his break up, on what Spike’s thinks is Xander’s wedding day.
Notes: The Song used for this day is Song- Someone Like You, By Adele
Beta(s): Spike_1790
Challenge: Write a Songfic a day for the entire month of February. Based on a prompt from Lady Q: Write a story or a series of stories based on the 25 most played songs on your ipod. Songs can be shuffled or in order up to the writer.
Spike never came back to Sunnydale after Xander walked in on Angel forcing a kiss on him. He couldn’t bear to see Xander move on. He instead stayed in LA hoping that Xander would come back for explanations after he calmed down. Buffy had been all too happy to call Angel and let him know Anya and Xander were back together, and that put paid to that plan. After a few weeks of letting Angel brood over Spike’s misery they did in fact try the couple thing again.
Even being with Angel all the time and being with someone who knew what he was better than anyone couldn’t help Spike feel less alone. In fact he felt more alone with Angel than he ever had in Sunnydale. Angel made him feel like a pet or a bed warmer and not an equal. All the rubbish about not having a soul and not being his equal.
Spike ended up traveling around the world for a while. While he was in Africa he found a Shaman and tried to get him to perform some mojo to make his worthy of love. What a laugh, he ended up with that pesky soul Angel kept holding over his head. He stopped back in LA to tell Angel that it didn’t matter if he thought he was worthy. There was only one person who he had to prove his worth to. The poof took great relish in telling him that Xander was marrying the demon chit.
I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.
Spike was happy for the whelp. Xander deserved someone he could stand in the sun with. Spike could picture the Whelp’s future laid out. Xander would keep moving up the lines at the construction firm. He and Anya would have a mess of children. Xander would make a great parent. It was a good future for Xander. Better than any one Spike could have given him if they had stayed together.
Spike really didn’t intend to be sitting outside the church in the poof’s car. Spike saw how happy Xander looked in his tux before the ceremony and couldn’t bring himself to go in the church. He ended up in the bar across the street and proceeded to start drowning his sorrows in a pint or five.
A few hours later Xander walked into the bar Spike was drinking at. He sat down and ordered a hard drink and concentrated on it like it held the meaning of life. Spike studied Xander’s face for moment. Just as he was about to look away he met eyes with Xander.
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.
Electricity sizzled in the air. Xander’s expression darkened.
“Why are you here Spike? Didn’t get enough of my pain the first time around? Needed to come watch me at the lowest moment of my life?”
“Sorry pet, I know I’m not welcome here, but you’re right- couldn’t stay away. Don’t know many people who call their wedding day the lowest moment of their life.”
“Well, I didn’t get married. I chickened out. A demon ruined that too.”
“Fancy talking about it?”
“No,” Xander said with his lips pursed. “Fine! it wasn’t the demon’s fault. I was scared to begin with. I’ve seen a lot of marriages go bad. I was scared I didn’t love Anya enough to make it work.”
“You’re a good man and you would make a good husband and father,” Spike replied.
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days
Xander let out a bark of laughter. “Oh, so now the guy who made me fall in love with him and cheated on me is giving me lessons on my self worth.”
“I didn’t cheat on you,” Spike murmured.
“Spike, what’s done is done, but don’t lie to me,” Xander said as he held up his hand in a stop motion. “You must think I’m stupid. I saw you and Angel together. Buffy told me you were in LA last time she visited. You never came back and tried to fix things.”
“Look, you’re right. Angel and I were together, but it wasn’t until months after you walked in on that kiss. Angel kissed me because he had this idea in his head it would be good for us to be together. He did it on purpose so you would catch us. I was caught as off guard as you were.”
“So why didn’t you come back and explain? You just stayed there!”
“You were right when you told me I was beneath you. You belong in the sunlight. You deserve the family and white picket fence that I can’t give you.””
“Why are you here Spike?”
“Because I still love you pet, and I wanted to see for myself that you were happy.”
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.
“The peroxide must have gone to your head because I just told you I’m not happy. I tried it with Anya. I wanted it to work, but I haven’t been happy since I saw you with Angel.”
“Xan, I love you and I want nothing more than to have you in my arms till the next apocalypse, but I meant it when I said you deserved what I can’t give you. I have a soul now pet, but I’ll never be able to love you the way you deserve.”
“What if I told you I would settle for loving me the way you can?”