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Sometimes i feel that he's slipping away from me. Before school it was just us, i was the only one who got to see a special side of him. It's strange i didn't think i'd be so selfish. I wanted him here i wanted him to make friends and bee happy.
but now that it's happening i don't like it. I must be horrible.
On top of that i feel bad because i can't comfort him and make him feel better. How can i be sorry about something that happened to people i hated. He didn't hate them though he loved them wanted to do things for them to be useful. He doesn't understand that what they were doing was bad that he wasn't being useful he was just a tool for them.
I can't be upset that they're gone and i can't hug him and give him comfort because i'm not upset.
it's been awhile since i've thought about this thing there's a lot to be done though. I need to go to town. I need to get away from the building for a while.
Does anyone want to go with me?