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[bloodmusician]

 There are times I think I have a depression problem or anxiety disorder. Here's a list of symptoms. I put in bold the ones I see in myself, italic the ones that are only very slight or in a less obvious manner. P.S. This isn't a self-pity fest so don't get me wrong. This is more for my own benefit, to understand what's going on with me and how I

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[crimsonkc]

Just to throw this out there

[bloodmusician]

I've thought long and hard about all this. It's been a force that has been present for my whole life. Depression and anxiety disorders are very strong in my family history. Both of my parents are medicated for depression, along with much of their families. I wouldn't say it's a case of overmedication, which I believe is quite common, just based on experiences I've had. I have irrational anxiety in many situations. I spent a couple years on depression medication, but went off of it because I felt it made me more unhappy. It wasn't because I was overtly unhappy, but because I showed other signs of clinical depression. I was so angry about taking them at the time, because I didn't feel they were necessary. I'm not actually saying I need them now, it's just a hypothesis about what's going on in my brain. There are further symptoms in my life that reflect these things quite clearly, and I don't want to perpetuate a scary trend. I am not, currently overtly unhappy, but sadness is not the only problem that comes with depression or anxiety

[crimsonkc]

The persons conducting the surveys were health care professionals, the club I am in is just who spread the word and hosted I guess. And thanks.

Have you re-re-re-considered counseling then ?
Perhaps opening up what is deeply rooted and maybe
hidden or even unknown would be the key;
instead of masking it with medication
(and because you said it did not really help before).

[bloodmusician]

That's the thing though... there isn't anything deeply rooted. There are cases where chemistry is to blame. It didn't help me before because I was extremely resistant to it. I'm not saying I want to run out right now and get myself pills though. I've seen medication have extremely positive influence on those with very similar genetic makeup to mine so I'm considering it an option if things get tougher.